Intentional harm can come from contempt, resentment, or unresolved anger

his is a rich, personal podcast transcript with strong themes around harm, boundaries, mental health, Indigenous identity, women's autonomy, systemic inequality, and personal experience. The main opportunity is not to change your message, but to make it clearer, more focused, and more persuasive for listeners. Overall strengths Authentic and emotionally honest voice. Strong storytelling through personal examples. Thought-provoking connections between personal experiences and broader social issues. Clear passion for advocating for Indigenous women, mental health, and boundaries. Reflective rather than purely argumentative in many sections. Main issues that weaken the piece 1. Too many topics competing for attention The podcast begins as a discussion about: harm and self-harm boundaries mental health stress in Indigenous communities But later expands into: misogyny workplace conflict Mormonism double consciousness racism whiteness Indigenous sovereignty women's health hysterectomies patriarchy singleness caste systems environmental spirituality A listener may struggle to understand the central point. Suggestion Choose one primary theme: "How unaddressed stress and poor boundaries create harm in our relationships and communities." Then connect everything back to that theme. For example: Story about cousin → boundaries Story about granddaughter → workplace stress Discussion of misogyny → boundaries and respect Women's health → advocating for oneself Everything should support the main argument. 2. The structure needs signposts The audience is often moved abruptly from one topic to another. For example: cousin workplace stress self-harm comments Mormonism Du Bois limerence misogyny women's health These transitions can feel disorienting. Suggestion Use clear transitions. Example: "This brings me to another issue I've been thinking about: how stress changes the way we treat one another." Or: "The experience with my cousin reminded me of a larger question about misogyny and power." These guide the listener through your thinking. 3. Reduce repetition There are many repeated phrases: "Like I said..." "The reality of it is..." "Again..." "You know..." "I think..." "And yet..." When used frequently, they weaken the impact. Example Current: "And the reality of it is, like the reality of it is, and yet the reality is..." Stronger: "What I'm realizing is that many women are carrying responsibilities that were never meant to be carried alone." Shorter. More direct. 4. Distinguish fact, opinion, and quotation Throughout the podcast you quote social media creators and commentators. Sometimes it becomes difficult to know: what Marina believes what a quoted speaker believes what is established research Suggestion Introduce quotations clearly. Example: "I recently heard an online commentator make the following argument, and while I don't agree with every part of it, one point stood out to me..." This gives listeners context. 5. Some claims need more nuance Statements such as: "Women were never supposed to be in relationships exclusively." or "Whiteness only created violence." or "People who intentionally hurt you hate you deeply." may alienate listeners because they are presented as universal truths. Stronger approach Instead of: "People who intentionally hurt you hate you." Try: "In some cases, intentional harm can come from contempt, resentment, or unresolved anger." This sounds more thoughtful and invites reflection rather than resistance. 6. Strengthen the opening The opening currently wanders before revealing the central idea. Current You introduce: harm self-harm boundaries feminine energy within the first minute. Stronger opening Example: "Today I want to talk about harm. Not just physical harm, but emotional harm. Specifically, how stress, resentment, and poor boundaries can lead people to hurt others, sometimes consciously and sometimes unconsciously. Over the past few weeks I've been reflecting on several experiences that forced me to think about this more deeply." That immediately tells listeners what the episode is about. 7. Create a stronger conclusion The podcast ends gradually rather than arriving at a clear takeaway. A conclusion might be: "What I've learned this week is that boundaries are not punishment. They're protection. They're how we preserve our mental health, our dignity, and our sense of self. Whether we're talking about family, community, work, or culture, we all have a responsibility to become more aware of the ways we project our stress onto others. Harm begins when we stop seeing each other clearly. Healing begins when we choose respect." This leaves listeners with a memorable final message. Content areas that could be condensed The following sections could be shortened significantly without losing meaning: Mormonism discussion Currently: several pages. Could become: "My sister's life took a very different path through Mormonism, and reflecting on that experience has made me think about how institutions shape how we see ourselves and others." Multiple quotations You include long excerpts from other speakers. Instead: summarize the key idea quote one powerful sentence discuss why it mattered to you This keeps your voice at the center. Repeated explanations of your cousin The story is important, but the key incident can be summarized: "After repeatedly making comments suggesting suicide when I had never expressed suicidal thoughts, and eventually telling me to 'take a pill and kill yourself,' I ended contact with her. That experience forced me to think more deeply about boundaries and emotional harm." That gives listeners the essential information quickly. Strongest themes worth emphasizing Your most powerful material appears to be: Boundaries as self-respect. How stress gets projected onto others. Indigenous women carrying disproportionate burdens. The importance of mental health. The difference between helping and enabling. Personal freedom and autonomy. Intergenerational patterns of caregiving and sacrifice. If the episode focused primarily on those themes, it would become much more cohesive and impactful. Suggested episode title When Stress Becomes Harm: Boundaries, Mental Health, and Respect The Cost of Carrying Everything Boundaries, Projection, and the Harm We Cause Respect, Freedom, and the Weight Women Carry Breaking the Cycle of Emotional Harm Summary The biggest improvement would be to narrow the focus, reduce repetition, and organize the material around one central argument. You have enough insight and personal experience here for several separate podcast episodes. Dividing this content into smaller episodes would likely make each message stronger and easier for listeners to absorb.

Marina Crane (00:01.698) Good afternoon. It's Marina Crane, Soutina, September twenty-sixt twenty-second, sorry. Well, I I just want to do my podcast on harm, harm reduction or self-harm or how we tend to harm others without I don't know, I I'd like to think that it's unintentional. But in recent cases, just involving myself, I think it's intentional. And I think sometimes we're a l a little bit naive in terms of our own feminine energy to think that we have nothing to do with it. Like it's it's you know, like there's a reason why people treat us the way we do the way they do. And again, too. You know, what boundaries do we need to put in place? you know, especially like if we haven't had practice you know, establishing certain boundaries, or even respected for putting boundaries up. So this morning I went to go get some blood work and I bumped into a young woman who was like a really her her grandmother was was one of my best friends and she's been gone maybe twenty years now. And I I knew her for like thirty years and I said to her granddaughter, I said, you know, your grandmother, no matter what horrible things her children ever said to her in confronting her or having a fight with her, not once did she ever tell me anything about what they said to her. she you know, she just never talked about her children at all. And I said that takes a lot of boundaries to do that. I said, especially when in today the people that I know who are seniors and who are looking after their children have nothing good to say about their own children, even even to the fact that they're enabling them by looking after them in their forties and their grandchildren, without even saying to them, you know, you need to Marina Crane (02:14.576) get out on your own and you know, pay rent or whatever. You know, get a job. Like I I c like I I've I've lived my whole life independently. And just to give up like the it's like I can't even imagine if I were in prison to give up my freedom And so I I can't even comprehend why adult children would would not understand that being codependent to a parent is not free. And like how free are you? So anyway, my my late friend's best my late friend's granddaughter was was really groomed by my best friend. And I I used to wonder, well, why is she doing all this, paying all this extra money? And then I said to my friend, I said, Well, I said, when you're gone, she'll realize like what you gave her and she'll know not to settle for less. But the reality of it is she had to take three months off from work from stress leave because she said the new chief and counsel are just so demanding. And yet, That's what happened with my cousin in another province on another First Nations that she as she put it, was forced to quit. But it is her decision. And she had been saying this for quite a while, like over a year. Now, why am I bringing this up again is because this cousin, who was a d a health director and who was all qualified, like got these workshops done by the federal government and you know, said, I'm educated and yet look at what she's done. Sometimes I'd talk to her and I'm on the phone with her and all of a sudden she'll say, Don't do it, and I'm going, What do you mean? Don't kill yourself. And I said, I'd say to her, what is it in the conversation that we've just had that leads you to think that I'm gonna kill myself? Like like I'm confronting her, asking her, Why is she saying these things to me? Marina Crane (04:23.722) And then last week when she said, Okay Marina, take a pill, kill yourself. Like it it's gone from like a s like I I can't comprehend that. I d I I blocked her, I I took her off my social media, I I just thought that's it, that's it. And you know, talking to this young woman this morning and she just looks stressed out and the doctor had given her three three months leave from work because of the stress. And she said it's the new chief in council. Now, our new chief in council have put down a lot of boundaries and have made a lot of restrictions in terms of spending as well. So a lot of people find it very stressful because I I truly believe maybe they got away with a lot of things and now the new chief in counsel aren't allowing that. And and rightfully so, like my my cousin in Manitoba, they had a a consultant firm come in to help with management and it was this consultant who her and the consultant had had mixed words through emails and and so she just couldn't handle you know the the the the emails and what was being said about her. So she quit, but again, her projecting all this stuff onto me, who like I represent someone who's happy and satisfied with my own life. And like I said to this young woman this morning, I said, you know, you're a young woman, you know, it's important to look after your mental health. The reality of it is like when you're young and you're dealing with your mental health, putting boundaries down, it it's the foundation of the you know, the rest of your life as you move forward, how you're going to deal with mental health issues as they apply to you because stress doesn't go away. It's just how you how you handle it and how you talk about it. So, Marina Crane (06:33.088) And I think that's why like for this podcast, especially for indigenous women, it's a a very stressful job. like this young woman she chose not to get married, she chose to have children so that they would be on our ban list. And this and the same with my cousin. She well, she she married someone within the community, but they've been divorced ever since her children were children. And so like when I talk about this the caste system within First Nations and Udur Metis communities, you know, I'm talking about the status of women in in terms of like what like in terms of misogyny as well. Because don't forget too, this whole lesson that I've learned with my cousin in Manitoba is that she's a misogynist. And I said to this young woman, I said, There are people who are misogynists and you can't change them. You're working with them, so how do you work with people that are are misogynist? And I did say to her, I said, Your grandmother, like you think you're have a difficult time working with misogyny. I said, It was worse during your grandmother's working t working life. And and it's true. You know, I th I I think a lot of times, When we look at things and we realize, did I go through that? And you're going, Yes, you did. So hopefully, hopefully she finds some peace because she has two two three children. She's a single mother. And the stress of like what happens if something happens to her? Who's gonna look after her children? And again, bottom line is sovereignty. Who has sovereignty over her children? or any for any children who are in my community. Like it's a very stressful situation for for women. But there's gotta be a point where the child grows up and starts, you know, getting an education or working and having boundaries like like my cousin's children. I you know, I I I looked after my niece, she's in her twenties now. Marina Crane (08:45.704) And I you know, I I had some boundaries and I said you can do like I never even checked to see how she took care of her room 'cause sh I said to her, You're you're you're you're a functioning human being. I'm not treating you like a child, I'm treating you like a roommate. And you know, all I expect is you to help with the dishes and take out the garbage. And and yet that was just a simple chore, but yet she didn't know how to handle that. So a lot of these things that I encounter with people that I've grown up, especially indigenous women who have are either looking after their grandchildren or their adult children. I think I'm I'm at a point where I can see the difference in terms of respect and the reality of it is like even the poorest of the poor, like the like my other cousin, her grandchildren are happy to see me. They show me respect. And yet yet you know other people, like even my family, I I don't know some of them. So you know how how how do I interact with them if I've never really spoken to them? Now the other the other day I did do a podcast and I I I had I had recorded some things and I wanted to bring light to just the repeat the certain the certain ones that I really thought that you know hit home. And I hope it hit ho it hits home for you. It hits you too because I don't know if it's the cost of living or just what's happening in the world today. But I but I just find that there are more people that are being stressed and and more people who are just taking it out on other people. And again I I I I'm maybe I'm say I wanna put this podcast out so that you become more self aware in in how you think about other people. This particular fellow, again you gotta be have some critical thinking here. But this fellow let's see. My Trump supporters don't care that Trump is lying to them. Marina Crane (11:05.238) If someone damaged you on purpose, I want you to hear me clearly. This wasn't a mistake. This wasn't a moment of weakness. It was a decision. And decisions have meaning. A person who chooses to break you with intention isn't confused. They hate you deeply and they want you to feel it. Now the real question isn't about why they did it. The real question is, what will you do about it? When someone causes intentional harm, it reveals far more than just a moment. Of cruelty. It exposes a deeper psychological state, contempt. Contempt is not just anger or dislike. It's the belief that the other person is beneath consideration, unworthy of empathy, or even less than human. And once that belief takes root in someone's heart and mind, it becomes fertile ground for destructive behavior. People don't damage others intentionally unless they've first stripped them of value. In their internal framework. That's why intentional harm is one of the clearest signs of deep-seated hatred. To intentionally harm someone, a person must go through a process of mental justification. They don't just act, they rationalize the act beforehand. They tell themselves stories. They deserved it. They're weak. They'll never change. They brought this on themselves. These internal narratives are not innocent, they're weapons. This is from Laura it's L A U R A K A E R C H E R. And and so like like when it has to to do with contempt and just them hating you. And like when I have my cousin like this is what they say, one, two, three strikes you're out. Well the first strike was when she was telling me not to Marina Crane (13:09.012) like not to kill myself when I didn't even utter anything about wanting to kill myself. And she just I said, W w what you led you led y leads you to believe that I'm thinking of killing myself. And then like I said last week it was like, you know, my my saying to her that like I'm I'm trying to hint to her that and obviously she understood that you know that her you know, she's got children who are in their forties. And and not just that, there are a lot of other older women like her who are holding on to their jobs in their seventies, not enjoying their lives, like they could be traveling, enjoying life, and instead they're paying their children adult children's bills. And Like I I I Marina Crane (14:10.006) I live comfortably. I I there there is no way that I I feel that if I were enabling somebody that I'm giving them a good shake at what the world's all about because you know they they people have to grow up and learn how to pay their bills and put boundaries down. But you know, if if people don't understand that even in with within their culture then then you know, what what is it that they're teaching? Marina Crane (14:45.194) I just like I said, I Marina Crane (14:50.646) if she has so much contempt for me because because I don't I don't have that I don't I don't have that in me to to to want to look after an adult. Marina Crane (15:07.284) I I I think I think more so my my sister called me from Utah. She's coming home tomorrow from the and she said there were a lot of people at the funeral asking where I was and I said to her, they're probably I said, I I said I she says, I wish I put got their names. I said, Well, they were probably wondering if I ever w got through to the Mormon temple. I was being sarcastic. you know, because really living in in Provo, Utah is like living in Shangri-La, a false a false society because like and I think I mentioned in a previous podcast, when you're renting an apartment or or renting a home and you're living on like 'cause the whole t town is a university town. And and so, you know, people who are renting know that you're a student and there's BYU standards. So a lot of times when some roommates are being promiscuous or not living the standards of according to Brigham the university, roommates can actually be snitches and anonymously call s university standards on on the on your housing and stuff. And you can actually get expelled from the university for not following the standards. So it it's really like in in real life that doesn't happen, but in that town it does. So that's why I say my li my sister has lived in Shangri-La forty years. Marina Crane (16:53.833) Okay, so I'm going to like I said, there's a lot of things that are both have been bothering me. Black people are forced to always be thinking about how racist white people see them. This causes them to develop a double consciousness that explains much of the psychological suffering, in this case derived from racism, but which we can generalize to many things. This is the theory of double consciousness by sociologist and activist Du Bois, who suffered the consequences of racial segregation in the United States. Blacks and whites separated by a color line not so long ago in schools, universities, and public transportation. He wanted to explain how this line doesn't just affect equal opportunity, which of course it does, but goes further. He spoke of the soul. The soul understood as black people being unable to reach their full potential as human beings. And he used a and that's like Indian residential school or even my going to a school in the city that I'm unable to reach my potential. Now that's not saying I I believe that. I'm saying systemic racism. Okay, 'cause there's this what do you call Erotomania, like it has to do with the psychological reality of of the mind. Not not the soul, but she's talking about the soul too, okay, because it's double. There's the the mind and the soul. And for me I use the soul in terms of limerence, this fantasy that we create, because we're trying to have discourse with with people who don't understand the culture and and dealing it in terms of h h human sexuality. Marina Crane (18:34.959) Because because it's a fantasy. Of the noble savage and and like like like say of Dracula and you know like that whole science fiction notion of going going to the forbidden fruit type of thing. So there's that so those two things in terms of the soul, because like if you if you're if you're a vampire, like the only way you can actually you know become human is to is to be killed, right? Or like so so there's whereas whereas the other sense too the there's they're they're hunting to kill you. So again I'm talking in terms of murdered and missing indigenous women or even black women. There there's this dichotomy of of the double the double i the double identity that that she's talking about that has been theorized before. reach their full potential as human beings. And he used the metaphor of the veil. White people see black people through that veil and don't see them as equals, but black people are forced to see themselves through that same veil. And this creates an identity conflict. There is the authentic self and the social self, what I know I represent in society and what I have to adapt to, the second consciousness. Or another example occurs to me. As a woman, you look in the mirror and continuously see yourself through the male gaze. It's a super useful theory for explaining many nuances surrounding psychological suffering on these topics. And it leaves us with a very important message that this veil must disappear. Black people are forced to always be thinking of See, so when I talk about this veil disappearing is is to understand it's to understand as someone who comes into the conversation or into the reality, like what is your mindset? Marina Crane (20:33.173) Are you more focused on the erodomania or are you more focused on the limerence? Because in the conversation, when we're talking about life, there there's always going to be like the pr the person sh who is is gazing upon the the the assumption that the society will never amount to anything. And and I use my sister as an example in Mormonism. when they were having the eulogy and talking at the funeral, the a lot of the men got up and had said, yes, my yes, Edna, my sister's name is Edna. She she went home like this is forty years ago and one of one of the one of the priesthood holders who looked like Santa Claus had told her, Go back to Provo and you find your husband. it just it just irks me that that there there are these white people, white men in a religion Who are forming this gaze, this erotic limerence gaze on my sister, saying, you know, if you stay here and you live in your community in Sutina, you're gonna be experiencing erotic. You're you know, like that is bad. You could die, like you know, like you can get your the beaten the bejesus beaten out of you. Go back to the states, find someone who Is a returned missionary, and again, they're focusing on her in limerence. Find someone who's in love with you. And that's what she did in Limerids. But the reality of it is she believed the narrative that that she she looks white, she can pass for white, but she also believed the narrative that the erotic within the community that I live in now is dangerous. And and that's why she's afraid to move home. And that's forty years of indoctrination. Okay, so that's why when we talk about the soul and and how the soul is trying to find peace. I mean my my sister called me and wanted to know if I wanted to talk to my niece, and I said, No, it's okay. And I expla explained to my younger sister, I don't know my sister or her children. Marina Crane (22:52.105) Again, because, you know, the the reality like like like in in my reality, my soul I will never reach her potential 'cause she's been to the Mormon temple. She's been a a returned missionary. Her and her husband have paid tithing, they lasted forty years. Yay, you know, they didn't get divorced or or who knows if they even messed around with each with other people. I don't know and I really don't care. But the reality of it is like they passed the test. You know, like that that Mormonism test. And and the thing is like, who's playing it? I wasn't playing it. But she she obviously was and continues. That's why even though we're sisters, it's forty years of coercive control, forty years of assuming that everything that I've been living in or peop her siblings have been living in in in our communities is based on erotic. And yet her lens and how white Mormons are seeing her is is through eroticism, through through lim the lens of limerence. The the the the the whole point of like repent, repent. You know, you need to deliver these standards before we accept you. Okay, so I have to address the fallacy of white proximity because I got enough DMs about it, and I can't just sit here and talk about how amazing Islam is without addressing something that a actually as as a society we all need to address. So a lot of times people have been taught to want something that never created anything. Look at what actually keeps people alive. Medicine, food, systems, water, energy, communication. The innovations that actually make survival possible. When you trace where they came from, it's not whiteness. It never was. Marina Crane (24:40.175) Whiteness didn't create that. Whiteness took it, renamed it, claimed it as its own. And here's what you have to understand. Whiteness is not a real thing. It's a construct. That means that it was it's something that was built. It was made up. It was designed to function a certain way. A construct is what happens when people agree to believe something that isn't true and then build systems to make that lie feel real, to make people act like it's real, to make it seem natural when it's entirely artificial. The reality is that whiteness got constructed through violence, through slavery, through colonialism, through laws that said certain people own things and certain people are things, through institutions that locked certain people out and let certain people in, through educational systems that wrote certain people into history and erased others. That's the machine. That makes a construct feel real. You know what whiteness actually created? Violence. That's the only thing it ever brought. The violence to steal labor, the violence to control who gets into rooms where thinking is happening, the violence to rewrite history, that takes a lot of work. It takes a lot of machinery and it takes a lot of force. If whiteness was actually superior, would it need all that? If we're talking about superiority, then it's certainly in what you produce, what you leave behind, what you What your work does for people, and by that measure, black and brown people have been far superior. That's just the facts. So when your child, your daughter or son, brings home a black or brown person and you say no, understand what you're actually chasing. You're chasing a construct, something that's not real, something that was built on theft. You're chasing a power that comes from oppression, and somehow you think it's superior. You're not chasing innovation, you're not chasing creation, you're not chasing the future, you're confusing dumb. With capability and ability. You're calling theft great and essentially reaching for proximity to something that's very hollow. Black and brown people built what the entire world runs on. That's where superiority lives. In the building, in the making, and what endures because it works, more importantly, because it benefits humanity. That is what's real, that's measurable, that's what the world depends on. So we really have to stop reaching for proximity to a construct and start looking at what your own people create. Marina Crane (26:55.095) Created Fiamania. That is Sacred F fit raw R A. What can I say? You know, it it's it's just the reality of of Marina Crane (27:19.103) It's the reality of being indigenous or just like w because the land means something. The land means something and and it's important that we understand that we're here to take care of the earth. We are power. But they have separated us from our spiritual connection to the earth. So people feel powerless. We look at the oppressor and we look at the enemy because they have the most guns and the most lies and the most money. People start to feel powerless. We are a power. We are a natural part of the creation. We were put here on the sacred Mother Earth to serve a purpose. And somewhere in the history of people, we're forgetting what the purpose is. The purpose is to honor the earth. The purpose is to protect the earth. The purpose is to live in balance with the earth. The earth is our mother. Take care of the earth. They pollute this oppressor, this machine that this machine that has gone mad and run among it is berserk. They keep telling us, you know, progress. They keep telling us face reality. Well, let's deal with reality. The reality is the earth can no longer take this. That's from Ota O Films. And that person who was talking was the late John Trudeau. So as a as a woman and as a woman who hasn't had a partner or shared my energy or given my energy to to patriarchy or or to build up the patriarch. it it's important to understand how freeing or how free I've been and the fact that I'm constantly putting boundaries and and trying to explain to Indigenous women what it feels like or what it is to be to be free of that and and to to enjoy to enjoy our lives. for me and how I understand relationships and intimacy is has been a long Marina Crane (29:28.013) hot fought out narrative and understanding and trying to understand why at the same time twenty years ago when Nathan Chasinghorse came here and I and I started warning people and I and I had a hard time wondering why nobody was listening to me. And today it's like because they didn't respect me. It isn't because I I didn't respect myself is because they didn't respect me. And and the thing is, like even today, you know, I can't teach my cousin to respect me. It's part of who she is and part of the choices that she made in her life so that she doesn't understand how to respect herself. And at at the same time too there's also that fear because they're single women, they're single parents raising their children for decades. And then they become seniors. And right until the bitter end, they're still they're still taking care of their children. And and with no sense of respect, even even in terms of relationships with relationships with their children. And and I think that was the bottom line too with my late friend and her granddaughter is She never spoke badly of her children, yet I know they had to have called her down, they had to have a conflict with her because there was so much violence that happened when she was with their father. And and she told me stories about how cruel he was. And so but she never she never said anything to me about how upset they were to her or what they've ever said to her. And and I think because of that, she really never took care of herself. Marina Crane (31:16.912) And she died at the age of sixty-three. Women were never supposed to be in relationships exclusively. There's a difference between having a relationship and being exclusive. in relationship and how you associate that with your identity. And so the problem with women is that when women are highly spiritually gifted, they may have psychic abilities, they may have the ability to talk to or or see spirits, they may have all these different avenues of talents that they incarnate it with that are here to serve a very specific purpose. But what happens is when women get in relationships, they have to merge their nervous system. So their partner actually borrows theirs. And when someone is borrowing your nervous system, you can't maintain your capacity and therefore you can't sustain the gifts that you have. But when you're in relationships and you're bound by marriage, your gifts can't fully come online. That doesn't mean you can't tap into them. And this is what a lot of people don't realize. I know some sisters right now who are very spiritual, spiritually powerful and have that authority, but that authority is diluted because they're compensating for their man's frequency. Patriarchy using Relationships as a tool to hijack the feminine is the reason why we have these Fortune 500 companies in in primary millionaire and billionaire statuses being occupied by men because when they're in relationships with women, the power that he shows up as having when he's the face of the company or he's the face of these organizations is actually being usurped from the mother in the equation. Marina Crane (33:00.3) So when you are tapped into your gifts, which means you have to be single and navigate relationships rather than being in them as a woman. You will be compensated by the universe. The universe will compensate you forward because you are living your authentic purpose, which means that you are fulfilling your soul contract. And that's what patriarchy doesn't want you to know. Patriarchy wants you to think that you the masculine and feminine corresponds to genders, and that every woman needs a man in order to get in tune with herself. But that's the illusion, and that's the basis of the narcissistic spell. So in my programs and my community, I help women break the spell and learn how. to rewrite the script of how to be the best and most authentic version of themselves. And that's from R E V S A J A. Women are not supposed to be in relationships. So again, like I said, I've been my whole life I chose I chose this and It's just it's just the reality of of what what I I understand, what what I've seen and and how like I've taken it upon myself. Now I know there is there was one video that of a lady who was talking about Marina Crane (34:40.791) What was she talking about? She was talking about Marina Crane (34:51.179) She was talking about her she was talking about women. She was talking about women. And she was talking about the health of women. And Marina Crane (35:07.671) just the whole notion of of how sometimes women in terms of their health and what they need to do. Marina Crane (35:27.585) There are a lot of times that I wish I had I had actually like I thought I I thought I knew where I'd put these these these I like I I really I'm sorry, I have to apologize. But I hope you understand too, like a lot of this stuff that I I do talk about, I've had some time to to to really think about them. and and some of them, like I said, it's it's interesting how Marina Crane (36:07.533) how we sort of just get get caught up in things. Now I'm not too sure if there are books too like a that I but Marina Crane (36:24.343) Some of the men heard it So books and research and Marina Crane (36:34.293) I guess the the bottom line here is is like the the people that that you see every day. And the thing is like I I I ha I think that I think the whole po point of my confusion too is that like I live by myself. I I I told my sister, I said, if anything I've learned and even for my for me to to block my cousin It is and and not just that, like to block this lady from California too. I is the reality is like they they really or are not my friends. like my my friend in Edmonton, everything she's done for her family, like in terms of of dances and cooking and community gatherings, like like I've done that too. I've done that too. And the reality of it is like you know, when is it our time to enjoy our lives? And it's just that reality. So we're constantly putting trying to keep our boundaries in place. And I was talking with a a lady who she's Muslim and she's been divorced for three years and we're talking about energy and how like like like that one lady says, you know, when you're in a relationship you're giving that energy to the patriarchy. And and all these women who who have certain gifts and powers, like like even little things that a woman wanted to do years ago. hundreds of years ago they thought she was a witch. And even like in like in this in this day and age when people want when women want to talk about what things that were happening to their bodies, it's like, let's just give her a hysterectomy. You know, just just do this, like, you know, like without even understanding the the c like what's happening to the female body. Marina Crane (38:30.631) And that's that was one of the things that I had put down in terms of wanting to have one of the ladies have a discussion on it was was just that, is is the the notion that sometimes people people they don't realize just just what women go through. Marina Crane (38:57.727) I recently made a video about how the rates of hysterectomy in the country it Marina Crane (39:07.765) It's it it is a reflection of the modern day burning of the lip. Sorry, it's it's my internet. Marina Crane (39:21.773) I don't know if you can still hear I think my point was messed entirely, so just want to talk about it. What I mean is There is a point in human Her name is Held Motherhood. There was a point in human history where women had such deep See to be clear, it's not just modern medicine and modern medicine does have a place in women's health care. It's the entire environment in which we live that does not serve knowledge and relationship with their bodies, such dominion over choice of says we live that does not serve vitality and optimal health, what our day-to-day lives look like, the way we perceive it and value care and tending to our bodies. Like when and if they wanted children was considered, especially by the church, sorcery. It's so ingrained it's like you can't even see the color of the water has changed when you're swimming in the water every day. But once you see it you can't unsee it. In witchcraft and women were burned at the stake for it systematically. So many women, in fact, that much of this knowledge was lost. Today, we still live in a world where we can feel the repercussions of that. Because the dominant paradigm of health for a woman's body is the modern medical system. Marina Crane (40:58.581) That believes that our knowledge of our own bodies is paternalized into some outsized source, that our uterus is an inconvenience that is pathologized, that is suppressed, that is silenced, instead of us being in deep relationship with it. And I do believe that today there is a resurgence and that practitioners are remembering that we do have this sovereignty. It is our birthright as women to have this kind of relationship with our bodies. And that if we practice this kind of care, That the rates of pelvic health issues would be nowhere near the numbers that they are at today. And so this is my point: is that we don't practice this kind of care for our bodies as modern people and modern women, and that the dominant health paradigm that we are practicing is systemically taking our power away from us. I recently made video about how the rates of hysterectomy in this country is a reflection of the modern day burning of the witches. I think my point was messed entirely, so just want to talk about it. What I mean is that there was a point in human history where women had such deep knowledge and relationship with their bodies, such dominion over choices like when and if they wanted children, was considered, especially by the church, sorcery in witchcraft and Women were burned at the stake for it systematically. So many women, in fact, that much of this knowledge was lost. Today, we still live in a world where we can feel the repercussions of that. Because the dominant paradigm of health for a woman's body is the modern medical system that believes that our knowledge of our own bodies is paternalized into some outsized source, that our uterus is an inconvenience, that is pathologized, that is suppressed. That is silenced instead of us being in deep relationship with it. And I do believe that today there is a resurgence, and that practitioners are remembering that we do have this sovereignty. It is our birthright as women to have this kind of relationship with our bodies. And that if we practice this kind of care, that the rates of pelvic health issues would be nowhere near the numbers that they are at today. And so this is my point: is that we don't practice this kind of care for. Marina Crane (43:20.663) Our bodies as modern people and modern women, and that the dominant health paradigm that we are practicing is systemically taking our power away from us. Even talking to the cousin that I that I blocked, talking to her about the choices I made not to be sexually active, not to have children, even the fact like my own sister that I was raised with, like a twin. like the systemic doctrine of Mormonism that I'm that I'm gay, like I'm shunned because they do not like homosexuality. And yet it has to do with my choice, my choice. And even in terms of the paradigm, like even with the Indian Act and the the caste system within in First Nations and within Metis communities, is that when you choose not to have children, you're at the lowest of the low. And then and then like I said, women like my my late friend's granddaughter to have three children with with no partner. That's the next level up. Then you have women who have married in or women who've grown up here who married men within the community. That's another level up. Okay, so you've got already three levels of sys of a caste system. Then from there you go up one more where it's just our men, our brothers, our uncles, our our fathers, all that, our grandfathers. That's the next level. Then on top of that level, you have white women who marry in. Under the Indian Act, once they married an indigenous person, they gained Indian status. So when you have white women pretending to be indigenous, it's because the Indian Act created that. And yet they and yet because they're married to indigenous men, you know, they get all these privileges. And who gets neglected? Women who chose not to have children. This whole paradigm, like going back even in European culture, like this lady said, you ch make a choice not to have children and you're considered a witch. You know, my cousin says, you're like a nun. I said, don't tell me I'm a nun. I made this choice. Marina Crane (45:40.662) Not because of religion. You know, the nuns were forced to marry these horny men. You know, and so they became they w they they went to the priest and they said, Protect us and the priest says, Well you have to, you know, follow these orders that we'll protect you in in the Catholic Church and as a group of women. And it became they became nuns. But again too, even them, like what they did to indigenous children. Like I said to my cousin, don't even put me in that category. Again, why put me in a category? You know, like women's health and pelv pelvic health. When in the seventies my mother had a hysterectomy. you know, even like the things that are happening with with my sisters or with women that I know in terms of public p pelvic health. You know, my my cousin like just the things that she's had to go through with with her own health. P pelvic health. And and you know, I I talk about estrogen replacement and just like like there there is so much that that we as women we need to talk to other women about because like even even bladder infections, UTIs and like when people use antibiotics and the effects that antibiotics have on the body after six months. Like all that in in terms of even brain health and as we age in terms of dementia or Alzheimer's. All these things that that have to do with with bladder infections, because the estrogen that are has did has been depleted because of menopause, there there are there are there's medication and different techniques that women can can use like estrogen cream so that UTIs get less I I did not know that there were a lot of senior women who die from from sepsis because they had bladder infections or constant UTIs. And and that's preventable. That is preventable. A and yet we don't talk about it. And and even for me to talk to my cousin about f women's health and and to be shunned by her when I talk about this as if it's some Marina Crane (48:07.531) taboo or some witch's spell when when really I'm talking about healthy human sexuality and and what it is for the female body to to have estrogen or even in some you know and even some balance of testosterone. Though these things are important and valid for women, for women's health. And the fact too that, you know, you you spend your whole life and this is what you know, like I I've grown up with with with the women who chose to have children. We're all the same height. And because some of them have had eight children, they've they've shrunk at least an inch or two for me because because of all the calcium that their bodies had to give up to their to make their children. during the times they were pregnant. All that that women have gone through to give birth, to have a choice, to have children. And yet what is society doing? Having them work in well past their their their their time to to to s retire. That that's that that's my critique on on the whole thing. But yet even for me to try and champion that and to be shunned and hated for talking about it, because like they it's just like no there there there are a lot of women who are suffering. and it's not just the women who who are chose not to to marry their partners. And again, we're talking about a caste system within under the guise of the Indian Act, the laws within the laws, like a fourth world law. And and how indigenous women live with that. And whereas white women can never comprehend that. They can comprehend, okay, we're struggling with this and this and this. Yes, you are. But there there's a double there's a double Marina Crane (50:13.643) take on it when when you're looking in terms of mental health, you're looking in terms of erotia and limerence. And and you know, you know, I just feel like swearing right now because there's a hell of a lot of mental health workers who just don't give a fuck. They just don't see the balance in it because they just think, I can deal with this. I understand this. Because I have an Indian friend. Or I I've done this work. I'm going, no, you don't. You don't understand it because you're not coming from a cross cultural orientation. Actu the actuality being actualized. Like I said, there there are are are black and indigenous academics in psychology who even tried to publish papers. And and the Psychology Association of Canada refused to s refuse to publish them. But yet you get you get any older white woman who wants to become a therapist, open doors. A little check mark. Go ahead. You've earned it. I'm going, what is the wrong with society? What is wrong with society? Anyway, that's my two bits, my rant for the day. But for those who who listen and and have been listening to my podcasts and And I believe me, I think this past week I kind of scared you all because, you know, just the talk about self-harm. It's not me doing the self-harm, it's it's the the actual hatred towards me in projecting that onto me. And and the reality of it is like like at least it's open. The majority of times when I talk about lateral violence. and the gossiping about it, th those are hidden. You don't see people actually doing that horrible work against you because it's it's all gossip. You don't hear about it. So so this week it was open, you know, it was just like said t in front of said to my face. So but the reality of it is like at at what point at what point do people just you know stop you know stop interfering. Marina Crane (52:40.011) Yeah, I'm I'm grateful like when people just call me just to see how I'm doing. Marina Crane (52:47.204) yeah, thank you. Have a good day. That's all. Just a simple hello. I I don't need I don't need somebody probing and trying to figure out if I know what one plus one is. You know, I just it's pathetic. And and yet Marina Crane (53:16.565) I think I'm I think I'm reflecting on the per repercussions of what I said to the mayor and city council in Calgary last last Monday. 'cause see it's recorded. It's it's all recorded. And and I I know I sparked some sort of trigger. Because I know all the people who were working on projects with the indigenous community that were work that work for the city, in the in the audience like I could see I could see hear the I could see movement, okay? And I know the aldermen were questioning, like, okay, this is the program and you know, all of a sudden people were sort of becoming alive and alert and so now even this week I'm one of the ladies who works said I I I I was told to watch your the video Marina and I'm going, you were watching me? I again. You know, if people were concerned and seek me out then yes they can seek me out. But but I want to let you know, you my audience, my podcast audience, wherever you are in the world, you mean the world to me because if it weren't for my doing this every day or trying to put something down every day, I wouldn't have the practice to get up in public and talk freely. Because it it gives me that opportunity to to gather my thoughts and and really fine tune them. So that that I do get the point across of what's happening in in the world that I live in that that makes sense because it's not just me. I know even what I think and how I understand things. It's just the tip of what's going on out there in the big world. I like like I'm just one of the I Marina Crane (55:18.505) Again, I laugh when I know the reality of how like it's like it's like quicksand, you know, s th you know, you step on it and you sink. Well i in some ways it it seems that way, but it isn't really. I I mean sometimes I do feel like that, but but I think the podcast helps me helps me surface, come to the surface. and and realize that there there is a point to to giving information out about the Indian Act, about systemic racism, about human trafficking, about the caste system and and people's attitude towards people who choose to live a different life than them. And you know, my my cousin and a lot of other older women who haven't looked after their mental health and who get completely stressed out and project all their anger and hate to to people like myself. That's why I'm saying, you know, when you have a a white woman who wants to become a therapist, she has the she has the umbrella of just not answering her phone or or not seeing the client. But for me I I I'm constantly like it's it's open. I have no protection from that. I I in I'm engaged in it all the time. But I do I do totally depend and di not depend I do reach out and I do have discussions with people. I'm very fortunate, and and in some ways when when l lady talked about certain gifts that women have I I do know I've possessed that most of my life because I'm not like I'm not a genius. I far from it. However, I do know the gifts that I I have and I possess have been validated throughout my life by by many people I've grown up with. And it's it's the same thing too. It's it's reciprocal when I see people Marina Crane (57:33.656) who who do things that I'm just amazed like that of the way they think and how they do things. I I'm I'm just grateful, you know, to to meet such people. And and it it fills me with joy that that I meet such people. In the face of all the ad the adversity and all the things that I hear from elder indigenous women. the the the oasis or the break that I have i is knowing that I'm talking with people who have a different skill set, who who've accomplished certain things in their lives that that are making a big difference in this world. And and I'm just totally grateful that I that I know people like that. So and I hope you as in my audience in my in my podcast here, my audience listening, for whatever reason you listen to me, I appreciate it. And and hopefully you you learn a bit about what it is to to be indigenous in Canada. You gotta understand this. In Western Canada, we haven't really lived as much around systemic racism. as as Eastern Canada or various parts of the United States. W we like I'm seventy-four. At seventy-four years ago they started building a fence around my community. You can go in the back of where I live and you can see all the leased lands where the the government had sectioned off sections, cut lines, the size of city blocks. You know, like You know, people are scared, like they say, geez, you know, the Sutina, the sea's gonna take over. Believe me, this was ex existed before I was even born. Marina Crane (59:37.388) So whatever I can do, whatever I can do to help people understand and learn the history of Soutina, I put two videos up that were I was interviewed by, and I have some more interviews that are gonna come from young people from Soutina who want to interview me, and I'll post those on my podcast. And I I open it up too to people who are listening. I've I've had some people from the United States email me but but really, you know, I I like it's it's one thing that you email me, it's another thing if I actually get a phone call from you and have some discussion. And if I have a discussion with you on the phone I can get a good handle on where you're coming from. But until then I'm I'm just screening screening my emails. Okay. I shall I shall let you go and to Darcy and Marie and Wednesday and whoever else is out there. May the force be with you.