Self Proclaimed Medicine Man, Nathan Chasing Horse used deceptions: 2023-10-15

This was my experience in confronting Nathan Chasing Horse in 2007. He had no compassion for his victims. His propensity for girls started being more openly displayed by the summer of 2007. Documentaries, Articles, Indigenous Podcasts, My Podcast is under construction. Archival documenting yearly posts posted with transcripts will be published here. I’ll also link my YouTube videos associated with each podcast published. I also created a link to my GOFUNDME account. I may link my TikTok account

Wednesday 18 October 2023

Joe Buffalo, talks about his dad being sexually molested. He talks about the effects of Indian Residential School had on him. 250 kids crying. He could hear the spirits in the walls. "Whose going to protect me?" Yet, his parents had it worse. His story about a rough life being a wild child. I am posting this video for all those who believe they can not heal. We as indigenous people were taught 'white adjacency'is the ideal because we are worthless and invisible. We depend on others. We depend on those we do not know to come safe us. So many times I've seen my leaders buy 'medicine people' to come heal us. We do not look from within our own indigenous communties for our own healers. I post this video about Joe Buffalo. As I've written this blog discussing my own journey hoping to gain the respect of men towards indigenous women and indigenous girls. It's the strength of those trained indignous women. During times when I just feel like giving up. When I hear that I am 'black listed' within my own community. I am an elder here and yet the leadership do not like what I write within my blog. Joe Buffalo talks about directlng his energy towards his craft of skatebroading rather than directing towards drug addictions. He's speaking the truth about the impact of intergenerational truama has on all our indigenous or some called all First Nations communties. We continue to lose our youth. A generation is being lost. The money directed towards Truth and Reconciation is not making its way to the 'grassroots' people instead its going to those who were educated within a colonial system that is systemic. We are our own medicine. We are those sp'sirits that our ancestors prayed to help us heal. I've said this to my nephews. We do not need to pay so called 'plastic medicine people' we do not need indigenous adjacency. Those who get money because the are associated with thrid world people like me. Yes, whats happening in the middle east and the death and distruction happened to us at some point in our history. Those who are oppressed, whose who suffer from conflict understand. We may not be hidding from bombs or gun fire, we are still dying. Society shoses who lives and who dies. We must find the courage to continue healing. As my own people as with so many Frist Nations or indigenous people (whatever is acceptatble) are experiencing. Anytime we accpet money from the government or from within our own communities, we are slienced. I am heartbroken that the victims of Nathan Chasing Horse who live within my community refuse to talk about how they are healing. This video of Joe Buffalo is prove that healing is possible without shame or fear. I only wish and hope those who were and still being effected by this 'fake, plastic medicine man' will find their courage. Since the denial of Indian Residentical School is so prevalent for decades that our own leadership pays such fake people. Thousand of dollars paid out becausse we can not see our own people's strengths. There is a new generation who are listening and I hope they hear or read my blog. Many times I've felt like i was all alone, loonely. I am human. I have needs. I still need acceptance and validation too. it's how we or I direct my energy. So my reader, I ask you to visualize me being encased in a bubble made up of postive,protective, reflective healing energy directed to saying to people "i love you!"

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Memories of my late mother saying her dad, my grandfather taught her in a warning that the Dakota Medicine was good, but not anymore. As far back as 81 years ago, fake medicine people deceived their own people for money, power, and glory. Our grandmothers showed us through their prayers helping us celebrate love and helping us celebrate life within our families. Through my own lived experiences, I had to eliminate my own self-defeating behavior. Our people are depending on us to bring justice into our Indigenous Communities. Our Indigenous girls and women are going missing at an alarming rate and are being human trafficked. With little help in finding them or bringing their killers or abusers to justice, I started this blog. I never thought I would live to see such as year as 2023. Today, I feel blessed to be able to hold those who reached out to me in high regard. I am truly grateful, Creator’s Will guided me in my lifetime to see Nathan Chasing Horse arrested. And, yet at the same time, I grief for all his victims who died before they could see him brought to justice.

Sunday 15 October 2023

woman's song

The Nakota, Dakota and Lakota Womoan's song this is my late mother's interpretaton translated into Dakota I will attempt to edit it in the best way possible as I've worked on this song for sometime now.

1.My late mother's wording

Nahaŋ winyaŋ kiŋ

Bdihečiya ye

Niye opeča

Ničiŋča kiŋ ča

Oyate kiŋ ye

Wačiŋ hi yape

My listening to an app to get the universal translate of the language attached for everyone to sing it. There are so many different dialects, so I am hoping I can feel comfortable in sing it later on

2. Woman’s song

Núŋǧe yúzA wiŋyaŋ kiŋ (listen women)

BdihédičiyA ye (have courage)

Niyé opeca (get ready)

Ničhíŋkši kiŋ ca (your children)

Oyate kiŋ ye (Your people)

WačhiŋkuyA hi yape (are depending on you)

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Intergenerational truama further perpetuated.

It was a HBO movie set I first met Nathan Chasing Horse. I worked along side my late mother who was literate in Dakota. We didn’t spend too much time with him as he knew how to somewhat speak Lakota. Mostly we were around Actors like Adam Beach and Eric Schweig teaching them the proper pronunciations. My first impression of him was not that of an actor rather that of an indigenous young man with many ex-girlfriends. I ignored his arrogance as I managed my way through being a consultant on behalf of my later mother for the Director and the executive producers of Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee. Micheal Spears was stopped at the Canadian border so his role needed to be filled and since Nathan Chasing Horse was available he auditioned for the part with my mother speaking Dakota to him. The original intention of the movie was to have most of the dialogue in Lakota; however, as production started only few dialogues were kept. The Sioux culture needed representation. I advised them that the songs sung in Lakota would add a difference to the lack of dialogue and they agreed. I suggested they use Nathan’s singing ability and his ability to pronounce Lakota correctly as an asset. Prior to this Nathan was only hired as a stand-in as a Sioux Jailer for Sioux prisoners, nothing more and nothing less. It was in the fall of 2006. Nathan made connections with my younger brother and my oldest niece whom I took on the movie set. My brother started promoting Nathan in the schools and asked if I could help connect him with others within my community. From the ending of the movie in November of 2006 until March 2007, Nathan, and his entourage of three men left. During this time, I reached out to my friends who were having problems with the daughters. We met and hatched a plan to raise money for the mother’s and their daughters to attend Yuwipi, sweats and Sundance. It was the trip to the Sundance in Wolf Point that would cost the most. We tried to fund raise that turned out to be a disaster; however, once members of my community met and supported Nathan the money for the Yuwipi and Sweats were found, but not the Sundance; however, my younger brother was helped with Nathan and his entourage for his Sundance in the summer of 2007. Our ancestors carried within them intergenerational trauma that was further perpetuated in the creations of Indian Residential Schools. It’s a dark place of racism and genocide. Much of what I’ve written about pertains to sexual deviancy. I basically thought the 12-step programs of AA, Al-Anon, Sex Addiction and other 12-step programs helped. As we’ve all grown up around family violence; I’ve met many men who were exposed to such extreme violence. Much I write about here is focusing on is Limerence, because of intergenerational trauma. As the Yuwipi focuses on Limerence practices and I believe was once good. I’ve found as more and more non-indigenous people and indigenous people seek out by cultural appropriation through exploitation. Culturally appropriating our sweats and ceremonies doesn't mean you are healed or that you are automatically adopted into an Indigenous way of knowing. Being around indigenous communities isn't a place to hide your disorders rather it needs to be a place of communities like AA, Al-non and other 12-step programs. There’s no magic wand nor some psychic Psyche who can conjure up a quick fix. It takes time and a lot of hard emotional work. It's just sad that our own people are predators to our own girls and women. I was born into such a way of thinking, and I don’t blame anyone. I’ve learned we as human beings have more in common than our differences. This need for validation and acceptance is as old as time itself, so be kind to yourself and love the person you discover within yourself.

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