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Wednesday, 23 September 2026

Personal accountability and self-reflection

This transcript covers a wide range of personal experiences, social commentary, health topics, Indigenous issues, religion, sexuality, and criticism of institutions. Here's a concise summary: Main Themes 1. Personal updates and boundaries Marina opens by discussing everyday events, including retrieving her dogs from a construction site. She explains that while her podcast content is free, she expects payment for interviews, speaking engagements, and professional consultation. She thanks listeners, especially those in the United States, while emphasizing her identity as a Canadian Indigenous elder. 2. Women's health and bodily autonomy She discusses hysterectomies, menopause, reproductive health, and the idea that women should have greater knowledge of and authority over their own bodies. She references commentary suggesting modern health systems can undermine women's confidence in their own bodily knowledge. She also talks about menopause, estrogen, insulin resistance, brain health, and lessons learned while caring for her diabetic mother. 3. Conflict with her cousin A recurring focus is her relationship with a cousin whom she has blocked. She describes incidents where the cousin allegedly made comments about suicide despite Marina not raising the topic. Marina interprets her cousin's behavior through themes of jealousy, unresolved emotional issues, and internalized misogyny. 4. Indigenous perspectives She emphasizes Indigenous sovereignty, traditional knowledge, community-based care, and Indigenous approaches to family and healing. She discusses violence against Indigenous women and references public comments about Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Girls (MMIWG). She argues that Indigenous cultural values around reciprocity, community, and responsibility differ from colonial power structures. 5. Child marriage, exploitation, and trafficking Marina discusses child marriage, coercive relationships, and the vulnerability of women and children. She comments extensively on trafficking, pornography, exploitation of minors, and the case of Nathan Chasing Horse. She stresses the distinction between consenting adults and the exploitation of children. 6. Criticism of psychology, medicine, and institutions She references an American Psychological Association apology concerning historical racism. She is critical of aspects of psychology, social work, and medical systems, especially where she believes they have harmed Indigenous peoples and other marginalized groups. She also discusses historical medical practices and concerns about women being subjected to poorly understood interventions. 7. Religion and power She reflects on Christianity, Mormonism, colonialism, white supremacy, conversion, and historical oppression. These sections contain strong personal opinions and interpretations regarding religious institutions and their social impacts. 8. Sexuality and identity She argues for acceptance of LGBTQ+ and Two-Spirit identities. She criticizes attempts to control gender expression or sexual identity. She advocates for open discussion of sexuality, relationships, and personal choice. Important Note The transcript contains many factual claims about history, medicine, religion, psychology, demographics, and public events. Some are presented as personal beliefs, interpretations, or opinions rather than established facts. If you're planning to publish, quote, fact-check, or analyze this material, many of those claims would need independent verification. Overall Message At its core, the podcast argues for: Indigenous self-determination, Women's bodily autonomy, Respect for personal identity, Greater awareness of exploitation and violence, Critical examination of institutions and power structures, Personal accountability and self-reflection. The tone is highly personal, conversational, and often blends individual experiences with broader social and political commentary.
Marina Crane (00:01.526) Well, good morning, podcast world. Marina Crane here from Soutina. And it's early in the morning. Believe it or not, I've had a ti I've had time to gather my two great Pyrenees. Well, I don't know if you're aware of this, like on my Instagram account, I've been documenting the fact that every evening I have to go pick up my dogs from the construction site. So this morning I thought I'd I'd go to Timmy's to get a copy and there they were. So I had to I had to bring them home. That's the latest on my extr expedition with my dogs. The other hand too is like I have blocked my my cousin. I call her my cousin because her her mother is my dad's first cousin and her father is my mother's first cousin. now what I'm going to be talking about too is is the reasoning behind who she is because I didn't really see the whole the whole nature of of the dynamics of her personality and character. But that being said too, I I just want my audience to know I I do receive emails and like I really appreciate the Americans who are listening. however, FYI, I'm a Canadian. I'm I'm an indigenous elder living in Canada who had lived in the States for for some time. But but also understand this too. My heritage, like my great grandmother was from Minnesota and and my grandfather had land in North Dakota. So well let me put just put it this way. When you invite me or think that I'd be, you know, good in Marina Crane (02:07.084) being interviewed on your podcast or vice versa. no, I'm I I'm I'm grateful that I do get emails, but the reality of it is I I don't do like well let me put it this way, I do this for free but but if people are trying to to have a conversation with me or some sort of discourse, anything I do, even within the city, I get paid. I d like when I do public speaking or group engagements, I get paid. So if you can afford me, pay. Let's do it. But if you can't, then you know, I'm I'm sorry, but I I do get paid for this. I do get paid for my knowledge. What I give out to the podcast is free. and hopefully people around the world will say, yes, this makes sense because it does. I I didn't get to this point in my life like e like any any easy way. Pardon me. But podcast I'm gonna do today, like I went through a series of these and I do this every every day, like I I'm I'm I've you know, I've I've done I've done years ago I've done online courses and You know, a few things that I think normally, women my age just just don't get involved with. But I I have. Marina Crane (03:45.036) You gotta understand too, my I'm just trying to clear up all this stuff in my my chest here. So if I in if I'm coughing away, coughing up a lung, I'm sorry. But again, good morning to Darcy and Marie and Wednesday and I c I could name the the ladies who sent me the email and I'm grateful. Okay. I think what is it, Oregon and California? Ugh okay. Here we go in relationships with with with a female body. And this is this is a a lady who it's called Hell Motherhood. And I think I started that in terms of hysterectomies in modern day women because I think a lot of times when we as women make choices It it doesn't re we like when I made a choice some fifty odd years well, yeah, fifty years ago, I didn't expect to to have this this interesting journey when it comes to my body and my decisions. However it it does hold a huge impact not not just for indigenous women, black women, women of color, but also women in general. Now like I said this lady she her she's on her social media is held motherhood. a clear to be she says to be clear it's not just modern medicine and modern medicine does have a place in women's health care. It's the entire environment in which we live that does not serve vitality and optimal health. What our day-to-day life looks like, the way we perceive and value care and tending to our bodies, it's so ingrained it's like you can't even see the color of the water has changed when you're swimming Marina Crane (05:47.978) in the water every day. But once you see it you can't unsee it. And and that's the whole scope of it too. I think the as we learn things and as we age and experience different things in life, we you know, we these things do do happen. Now what's the hysterectomy in this country is A reflection of the modern day burning the witches. I think my point was missed entirely, so I just want to talk about it. What I mean is that there was a point in human history where women had such deep knowledge and relationship with their bodies, such dominion over choices like when and if they wanted children, was considered, especially by the church, sorcery in witchcraft. And women were burned at the stake for it systematically. So many women, in fact, that much Of this knowledge was lost. Today, we still live in a world where we can feel the repercussions of that. Because the dominant paradigm of health for a woman's body is the modern medical system that believes that our knowledge of our own bodies is paternalized into some outsized source, that our uterus is an inconvenience, that is pathologized, that is suppressed, that is silenced. Instead of us being in deep relationship with it. And I do believe that today there is a resurgence and that practitioners are remembering that we do have this sovereignty. It is our birthright as women to have this kind of relationship with our bodies. And that if we practice this kind of care, that the rates of pelvic health issues would be nowhere near the numbers that they are at today. And so this is my point: is that that we don't practice this kind of care for our bodies as modern people and modern Modern women, and that the dominant health paradigm that we are practicing is systemically taking our power away from us. That's why, like when my cousin, who is an Indigenous health director, makes claims like coaching me to kill myself. Now, understand this too. There have been times in the past couple of years too where she were just totally talking, and out of the blue, she'll say, Don't do it. Marina Crane (08:06.677) And I'm going, what are you talking about? She says, Don't kill yourself. And I'm going, at what part of our conversation in the context did I even utter that I was going to kill myself? And and then for the fact that she's doing this. So this whole podcast is going to be centered around that issue and the the reasoning, in my opinion, why she sees life the way she does. And and I think it holds to a lot of women who have certain issues and again too like I can't just go up and shake somebody and say, Wake up. So here we go. This is let's see Angus NY So that's how can make the famous Greek Hold on, I I'm sorry, I was looking at a at a recipe for onions and bread. Okay, sorry about that. I just Play it play it along like it's my dimension Alzheimer's. Like like you know, I mean I I try I kid you not. I I'm consciously aware that I'm aging and my brain is is you know, I'm trying to be as functional as I can. No details on that. The American Psychological Association issued a historic line by line apology in October 2021, not for past mistakes, but for creating, packaging, and marketing the very lies that justified slavery, segregation, forced sterilization, and over policing. Marina Crane (09:55.673) Below is the full text of the apology, the specific falsehoods they confess to, and the biomarker receipts that prove the damage is still in our cells today. Marina Crane (10:13.762) The apology text, word for word, October twenty-ninth, October twenty twenty October twenty-ninth of twenty twenty one. The this is in quotes the American Psychological Association apologizes to black communities for promoting and perpetuating systemic racism. At this. Marina Crane (10:40.96) We condemn ourselves for using our authority to label black people as inherently pathological, justifying segregation over policing, and forced sterilization and failing to challenge racist policies. Marina Crane (11:03.594) We pledge to dismantle racist structures and repair the harm by returning resources to the black communities. Marina Crane (11:16.982) Bye. Marina Crane (11:24.632) The specific falsehoods they confess to. The American Psychological Association issued a historic line-by-line apology, and here are the things that they confess to. Black people have a lower IQ. This was established in 1916, from 1916 to the 1970s. Marina Crane (11:54.093) Yeah, how come their apology wasn't as loud as details on that? The Americans No, her her name is Mama T-R-A-Y W-I-L-B-D-O-N. the unspell the unspelling podcast. And Why I put this, it's so poignant to Canada's truth and reconciliation and the whole point of like everything they've done to black people in terms of the psychology association i i is is dubb is a double edged sword. Because like like I'm I make criticism in terms of white psychologists, white social workers, even white ac white academic at the university level. And even like I I had a therapist who teaches at the university. Calgary. And you know, she she had issues with boundaries, and a lot of her colleagues, you know, would rent an office space from her, and she just they just couldn't handle working with her. Now, when I'd see her, she'd constantly write, be writing and writing, no boundaries, like it was a bottomless pit. And yet, what information has she taken with her as she's studying me? Not not only that too, like it's a con continuous that's why it that's why I say when people send me emails and I'm going, No, I you know, you pay me. You wanna interview me, you pay me because I've had it with white women. And and I've had it with, you know, s psychologists because the whole point of this is like what this lady said in in terms of of just you know apologizing. You know, Prime Minister Stephen Harper apologized for the Indian residential schools. So so the whole notion that, you know, something academically or psychologically or something is the matter with indigenous women. Marina Crane (14:01.046) And and that's my whole point on this podcast is is the reality of like what the hell are you thinking of? See, I've grown up with white people my entire life, so it's not something where I'm sort of fawning over them and try and saying, I'm sorry I hurt your your feelings like like like I said, our premier last week started crying. Like, come on, fake tears. give you know, like I said, get off the cross and I need the f wood to make a sweat. And again to all this interesting notions of what society has accepted. Marina Crane (14:43.35) women are oppressed in Judaism, in Christianity, in Islam, in Hinduism. So women are oppressed in all religions. And why women should marry a young? You know, the they tried I was about to marry when I was ten years, you know, but I struggled it hard. I struggled. Child marriage is universal. You're in China in genetics. It's like female genetic mutilation. It's like polygamy, monogamy, like you know everything, like everything related to women, it is universal because girls should marry young and the man is older to dominate her. You know, domination. The husband should dominate. So they the girl, Mary Young. She's ignorant. She can be manipulated. women are all see, and when I when I started wondering why people weren't reporting Nathan Chasing horse, you know, see when I I lived in the States and my older brother was getting married a second time. And so I you know, I flew I well I I drove I drove up to Canada and then and then from where I live he's another five out five hours north of here to to to drive. And I went into the community and I was completely amazed that there were like thirteen, fourteen, fifteen year olds with babies, carrying babies. Now I just thought, okay, you know, they're child child, you know, child pregnancies. But but even now, like decades later, and you know, I'm asking questions like, why is it why is it so common that people just thought it was okay for this man who'd had already fathered over ten children, portraying himself as being single and having this Marina Crane (16:38.554) charisma or some sort of power over women when really it had nothing to do with him having power over women was the attitude, the attitude of society in what how they perceived women and women's bodies, like that they needed to be controlled. So that the majority of times, even when I talk to some women, I'm going, why? And one lady said, well her husband's from northern Alberta and she said even his family like when a when a girl starts becoming sexually active, they they want to control her. So they will marry her off to an older man so that she will be tamed and listen to him about what she's doing. And and the struggle is so real. Okay, the struggle is so real. And I think a lot of young women in these northern communities find it disheartening that they'll they're forced into these relationships li so that somebody can control them. and this lady the podcast was N-A-W-A-L period E L period S A D A W I and Dr. Martinet, I S U I N C I O N and Liberation Psychology, decolonizing, healing the inner child. just things that, you know, like again, it's it's prevalent all over. And so even in my podcast when I do talk about these things and I get emails saying, it was so heart wrenching, Marina Yes, it's heart wrenching, but I'm a senior, I'm not a child and that's what's so heartbreaking is that Marina Crane (18:27.158) people don't realize that they're doing they're when when you traffic a child that's to a to to an older person or even if a woman an older woman is trafficking that child it's it's unforgivable. It's unforgivable that because do they understand or have they themselves gone through the whole system and are misogynists? And even okay, here's a fact about women's brains. They found that The the the female brain, postmenopause, starts to become a little more insulin resistant. That's not surprising with the loss of estrogens in particular and just a growing insulin resistance. But that that the herp the female brain was so it was getting so energy deprived because of its forced reliance on glucose, which again has a gatekeeper where insulin needs to be working well to get that glucose into the brain, at least all sections of the brain. And and so the the brain was starting to become energy deficient. That it started catabolizing its own white matter. Yeah. Its own physical fatty substance. The brain is a very fat organ, actually, has a lot of fat in it, in its substance. And it starts burning through its own mass in order to turn that white matter into ketones to try to make up for the energetic gap that is caused by the growing insulin resistance. I found So this is Dr. D R period M-I-N-D-Y-P-E-L-S-Z and B-E-N-B-I-K-M-A-N-P-H-D. And so they're two the two are talking and one of them they're saying one of the most important things Dr. Bin Marina Crane (20:20.3) Berkman and I talk about is about what I can ha what can happen to a woman's metabolism as estrogen begins to change. Estrogen helps support the way the brain uses glucose. So as the levels shift through menopause, the brain can become less efficient to assessing the fuel it once relied on. At the same time, that woman can become more insulin resistant. That combination can feel like an energy crisis in the brain and it's one of the reasons I want women to stop blaming themselves when their body suddenly stops responding the way it did at thirty. This is where understanding insulin, metabolism, flexibility, and the alternative fuel like ketones become so powerful. Your biology has changed and your strategy needs to change with it. See, when I took care of my late mother, I I took care of her, I was a primary caregiver. And for like over ten years she became a brittle diabetic. And a lot of times when I'd have to call the ambulance, I'd give her nitro, like she had she wore a nitro patch. and she also had like nitro spray and when when she would bottom out and she would her you know she would di was disoriented I I would give her juices now I had thought like okay it's important that she gets her sh her sugar down But when the ambulance came and and they were talking to me, see there were there were a lot of things I didn't understand. For one, okay, when it comes to the heart, even though I would give my mother that nitro Marina Crane (22:12.884) I I really thought like, okay, it'll stop stop her heart attack. But see what nitro does, it's relaxes the muscle, opens the the vent the vessels so it's op open so the blood can flow into the heart because the heart needs oxygen. Now understand this too. When you have a heart attack, you're gonna have a heart attack. That's it. Nitrospery just opens up the heart to get more oxygen. Doesn't prevent a heart attack. So so there are certain r things that You know, when when you're looking at congestive heart disease and and how you l understand your body, it's you that have to understand it, not your primary caregiver. It's important that everybody gets educated on it. But understand this too. When I gave my mother juices waiting for the ambulance to come and when she felt disoriented, the I didn't understand this until another pair and I got educated by a lot of paramedics and and internal specialists. I didn't Not realize because I always tried to make sure that my mother's sugar levels were normal when she woke up. But get this, and this is why I played this one tape. The brain needs sugar. Okay? Like when they're talking about the ketones and all this for brain health. Because that you know it's like eat eating the gray matter. And but if you they 'cause they said no, the brain needs sugar and I I think more so when and I again I'm not saying to go and drink colas or refine sugar. There are other natural ways in which you can your brain can can function without those the white substance. So again, you know, it's important for the metabolism of estrogen. That's why when when you go through estrogen therapy, even estrogen cream for your your your female organs and just the whole nature of of taking care of yourself, because women even though women can live without intercourse Marina Crane (24:21.076) It's important for stimulus. The stimulus still activates the brain and the hormones and gets all the juices flowing. I'm not just talking about the sexual juices, I'm talking about brain health, heart health. Definitely, definitely, you know, things that you wouldn't have even thought of because talking about masturbation is a taboo. You know, you're considered like a witch or even if you choose say, well I don't need to be with a man and you're you know, and the man is going, Something's the matter with you Like it you know, or you've been traumatized, like you poor thing. So I I think a lot of the conversations i in terms of what women feel comfortable in talking about i is important. But at the same time too, I think women really need to do some self reflection because a lot of times I think we hurt each other. Like I said, my cousin intentionally telling me to kill myself. dangers of the conversion. Marina Crane (25:32.217) This is This is why they're so scared because indigenous culture is such a threat to a dystopian vision of the future. The reason why indigenous cultures are the number one Of empire. It's not just the land, it is the mentality that indigenous cultures have that is a danger to all of the empire's hegemony if it spreads to non-indigenous people. So if white boys like me who happen to go to Palestine when they're an when they're an evangelical Zionist, and I suddenly I'm I'm in a village in the West Bank and I'm like, I like this. In fact, I like this better than my culture. They don't want that because then I might take that. that mentality back to my country, which I did, and become this person who's pushing for an like you know anti-capitalist back to indigenous roots land back indigenous sovereignty thing they're scared of that more than they're scared more than they want that land itself so right this is why they're so scared because indigenous so this is X O C H I T A S E H E She says this is what they're scared of. Indigenous wisdom is the threat to their di dystopian future. Our roots, our ancestors, our connection to the land, the water, the animals, and each other. The thing money can't buy and control can't touch. That's why they're trying to take, that's exactly why they hold on tighter. React so again she's talking about John Fitter Fitterrib. Marina Crane (27:17.328) Fitter lib and Bill Meyer living obituary with the Nor hadidi. So again, you know, indigenous wisdom and knowledge for these times. So a lot of I guess what I'm trying to say too is that a lot of times people are curious because, you know, they just look at things and and you know, figure, she you know, she she's interesting. I I want I want I want to talk to her. She sounds like an interest interesting person. Okay, so again, like I I want people to understand too, like, How many countries still allow child brides? you know, to me to me, when I talk to people about mm like the reality that I haven't been sexually active and that I could live without like h intercourse, the reality is like something's the matter with you. You've been traumatized. You've live like projecting their stuff onto me. And and I think that's one of the reasons why when it comes to two spirited people, I I have empathy and I can understand because they they've chosen a life. They they've they've this is they they've choked they how do I put it, this is who their identity is. And the fact that there's so many people trying to erase that, like even for me, it's like, do people believe you? They ask me and I'm going, it doesn't matter if they believe me or not. Marina Crane (29:03.862) And that's the reality of it, is like people just don't feel comfortable in their own choices. Marina Crane (29:12.33) No, here's Do you think any of this is by accident? In the nineteen thirties they were giving x-rays on every pregnant woman to measure her pelvis. And then in the nineteen forties they discovered that that caused the baby to have cancer. So they had to stop it. And then in the nineteen fifties and sixties, they had another drug called phalinamide. which caused babies to be born without arms and legs. And then they had to stop that. But you see, in every case it was after the fact. In the nineteen nineties, they were giving cytotech to induce labor in women who had had a previous caesarean. And they ended up with hundreds and hundreds of ruptured uteruses and many, many, many dead babies. before they found out finally in 1999 that they shouldn't do that. But you see, there's not a good history in obstetric practice of careful study of the long-term effects of all these interventions. This is why if you really want a humanized birth, the best thing to do is to get the hell out of And isn't it interesting that the third leading cause of death in the United States is medical malpractice? But they're not still using people as test subjects and guinea pigs today because they would never force people under duress in fear of losing their whole livelihood to take an experimental vaccine that would cause turbo cancer, mitochonditis in children, and all these other horrible side effects that kill them right away or eventually will kill them in the imminent future. No, they didn't know that was gonna happen. When you walk in those doors, ladies and gentlemen, you're handing your life over to these people that in the end, I don't know if they really care about you, because just go look at COVID in 2020. They went along with the plan because they were only doing their job and they believed what the Rockefeller medicine and Rockefeller curriculum was telling them to do. It makes you think, are people still their test subjects and their guinea pigs today? And is all of this on purpose? Marina Crane (31:28.268) That handle is A N E W R E A L I T Y twenty two. And like when I lived in the States and I had a roommate, I think she said she had to she was in her early twenties and she said if she ever hoped to have a child, she needed to have a child as a young woman because her mother had taken some medication when she was pregnant. And it created a lot of birth defects or something, but she had developed something that limited her window of of pregnancy. like I like a lot of times, you know, women take were taking things that they thought like this fellow said, you know, all this experimental stuff and it had extreme side effects, like e even x-rays. And and like for me, I I was born my grandmother's I I was born with a midwi midwives who gave gave me li like took they helped my mother birth me in forty below weather and I was breech birth. I went came out feet first. My one of my nieces sh well, most of the young women in my community try to have home births. And and and and and that's the thing too, is we're getting a new health center built. It would be nice to have midwives helping give birth to our children in in centers in our health center. Like I said, having sovereignty over our children where we can have births within our communities like we did hundreds and thousands of years. And even, you know, having group homes or group shelters, like because we're a collective holistic culture. Marina Crane (33:20.98) Again, this is sovereignty over our own child and family services, which is part of that Bill S six two that's coming out in Canada. And again, American people who are listening, like I I know these concepts are foreign to you, but this is how we live in Canada. And again too, it's I I really appreciate the fact that a lot of young Indigenous women are choosing to have home births because again, I like I was so brokenhearted when I worked with a young woman, her child her five of her children were apprehended. She chose not to get married, she chose so her children could be nation like have membership, wouldn't lose their status. And she was pregnant, went into the hospital, gave birth, she didn't even see her baby. Child and family from the Alberta services just took her baby. I was shocked when I heard that, 'cause I didn't think that was happening in this day and age. And within two months she died of a broken heart. And all of her children now are like in foster care or probably up for adoption. Like I said in my previous podcast about a month ago, one of the ladies said she was looking her and her partner were gonna adopt and the the adoption pool was all mostly indigenous. And this is in twenty twenty-six in in the city of Calgary. And I anyway, you know, as much as I mention it to politicians you know, get people to understand like it's fourth gen fourth world concepts are different in terms of what indigenous women are facing as well as children because we're the most vulnerable. But here's something about native men. Marina Crane (35:12.118) One of the biggest discernments between us and Western patriarchy is that native native masculine identity isn't it's not about dominion, right? And really I think back to my history and being raised on the reservation where I was really I was really you privileged to be a part of a generation, my dad and his generation who were revitalizing a lot of things in the community. But through that whole process, through through, you know, this men's circles and gathering and throughout my twenty something years of traveling native country, it's it's it's it's very clear that that indigenous masculinity is is rooted in reciprocity. It's it's rooted in in protectorship. It's rooted in understanding that we have a a very sacred role within this this greater, you know web of life here and you know one of the biggest discernments between us and Western patriarchy is that native native masculine identity isn't it's not about dominion right over land and women. It's it's it's one that's in service, that's understanding reciprocity. And so it's a it's a sacred role that the man must have understanding this first the vision that he has, but also understanding the steps that he has to take in order to fulfill that vision. Which is this place is in community one of the biggest discernments between us and Western And that's called our sacred lessons and that's his handle. And so like I sa he says Western f patriarchy like he's talking about how he how he saw things and how he was raised. Again too, a lot of these things too like he says he cites that stats in his work that's why he does the work he does on men's healing Marina Crane (37:07.358) And pre-colonial indigenous male kinship teachings, Western patriarchy, attitude and behaviors have infiltrated indigenous people for centuries. There is a movement for Native men to reclaim our original roles alongside the women in our communities. And Native women are asking for this for decades. It's easy to not see the movement happening when one isn't involved in Native communities day to day. So that that's why I when I talk about the difference in people pretending to be indigenous, because there there is that day-to-day involvement with one's community that is so vital to he the healing practices and even what native men are becoming. Okay, now this one has to do with pornography and a lot of times too, I didn't understand Like I said, I was very naive in terms of people having access to pornography online. And like like I'm I'm talking I was so n naive because I the only time I ever had really talked about it academically was in the seventies and seventy six and even that it wasn't like something in my study cur w study wheelhouse. Marina Crane (38:29.962) So this one Human trafficking of porn. If you're a porn addict, you'd most lik be pleasure No, I don't know if it's gonna come through the Seems like my internet's acting up once in a while here. So to a real victim being gripped. Did you do this intentionally? No. You think it's just a video? It's all acting. That's not true. From like 9 p.m. till four in the morning, I was right. They they took breaks and and told me I had to refilm sc scenes. I tried to run naked from the hotel room at one point. I was physically shoved back and there was someone outside of the door. I didn't even make it to the door. In the context of years in the fight against sex trafficking, so I had been fighting Sex trafficking when this began at the start of 2020. this was February 2020 when the the fight to hold Pornhub accountable for rape, sex trafficking, child abuse began. One of the stories that came up at late 2019 that really arrested my attention was a story of a 15-year-old girl, and she was from Broward County, Florida, and she was missing for an entire year. And she was finally found when her distraught mother was tipped off by a pornhead user that he recognized her daughter on the site. And she was found in fifty-eight videos being abused for profit. These are monetized videos. police, you know, were dispatched and they actually rescued her out of his apartment. She had been impregnated. How does an addict even get to the point where they see one of these videos? We build a tolerance to regular vanilla videos. And in order to get the same dopamine high, we need crazier and crazier content. The more perverted and taboo the video is, the higher the high. And then afterwards, when the post-night clarity kicks in, we're filled with guilt, shame, and regret. Marina Crane (40:11.24) We make a promise to ourselves that we'll never watch that again. But unfortunately, new neural pathways have been formed in the brain, and eventually we'll go back to the same filth chasing that same high like a drug addict. What are the spiritual implications of masturbating to a video of a real victim who's been human-trafficked and graped? Even if we're completely unaware of it. We think it's just acting. Unfortunately, we're becoming demonically possessed. How? These screens on our devices are black mirrors. There's an ancient practice called scrying, which involves staring into a black mirror in order to summon demonic entities. While watching porn, We're orgasming while staring into the portal of a black mirror. The eyes are the window to the soul. We're inviting demonic entities from here into here. Because we are participating in a ritual of PMO, which is porn, masturbation, and orgasm, while viewing something truly evil. Even though you may not be aware that there's a real victim in the video you're watching, you're still consenting to it by participating in it via PMO. It's a spiritual ritual, and this is how you get demons. And that's why you keep going back to the same filth over and over and over again. If you resonate with this video, you're not alone. I'm speaking from personal experience. So what do we do? First, we need to pray to God to help all the victims of human trafficking. Second, we need to stop watching this film. How? Well have you finally had enough of the shame, guilt, and regret? Sign up for my pornography addiction recovery course where I give you all Now again, I'm sorry if I he he's bringing in God into this because the to me that's a bit heavy handed. Sorry to have brought that in. But his his whole handle too is white magic tiger, like excuse me, the only reason I thought this video was important was because of of the the women who had been videotaped. in in porn and trying to escape. So, like I said, I didn't even know that you could access porn until the pandemic. And and even then too, like I I didn't even know the extent of how Marina Crane (42:10.466) barbaric some of the images are. I have a childhood friend who worked in customs and she talked about like the magazines that they'd have to confiscate at the borders or when flights came in from different parts of the country, like different different nationalities and what type of porn they had on their person. like it's like I I don't like the word diabolical, but when you have like like I said I'm sorry that the that I played that part about you know this demon and the black screen and shit like that. That to me that like that's just an excuse. I when when a person when a person realizes like what you're watching is is a victim. And and in in some cases, like even when a victim is scared, they they they will participate. And and I and I've watched. Like I like I said, I I didn't know you could have access to it or what it is and and like I like when I look at it I'm thinking there are eight billion people in this world. Eight billion and the fact that porn has been around like I heard about porn in the seventies. And understand when I was a teenager, like when I was fifteen, the only soft porn was like true confession magazines where they talk about you know finding messing around. Th it it wasn't it wasn't graphic. Even Errol Robbins, like the author, I I didn't understand the soft porn of that literature. until I actually read it in my twenties and I'm going, my goodness. Marina Crane (44:01.962) Or the Happy Hooker, that was a that was a book in the seventies too. So so a lot of these things like when when when I read certain things it stays in my mind and and I thought, my goodness, I I I really have to choose w what I want to read. But it's the same concept in in terms of I I don't think watching it is has the same degree of actually reading it. but I do know that that when it came to Nathan Chasing Horse and the hundreds of video that he had of of children and and the fact that they they were able to to figure out which hotels in Las Vegas he'd actually had been taping. And the fact that the hotels or the casinos of the hotel would w knew him. Like well, like I think in Las Vegas they have what, forty thousand like it's il it's legal to be a prostitute in Las Vegas, so there are forty thousand prostitutes. So again, th this is consensual. When we're talking porn and children, that's non consensual. That's non consensual. Big huge difference. And so that's why when this fellow is talking about like you know, this addiction he's not being specific in saying that he's addiction to addicted to child porn. So let the buffalo walk so anyway, I I just wanted to make that connection that that s the well obviously people would know like I I I I know the one of the ladies who had been in the cult with Nathan Chasingorse had said we were drinking the Kool-Aid and and she had to help the FBI and other agencies look look at you know to try and identify where the rooms were. And like I said here in my community that young woman who she met him when he was she was fourteen and the week after she turned fifteen had taken her three times and videotaped her. And and the fact that there were videotapes of him Marina Crane (46:23.394) with children. And that the probability of him uploading them or selling them, you know, to feed hi na I'm talking about Nathan Chasing who is uploading and selling these videos to porn hubs. Like like even in the story like the the one young woman who was missing for a year, they found her because somebody I de I had seen her in a porn video. and again, like I said with indigenous kids, the average age the targeted age is fourteen. And and even how they groom them to to have so many partners in a day. I I like when you're talking about energy balance and like just constantly having sex, their bodies heat up. And then after like four days or so they put them in the room for their bodies to cool down. And if their bodies don't cool down, they end up dying. And these are children that are being groomed and so that their bodies get used to having s many sexual partners. And no doubt, like at that point, they they they get videotaped for porn. The the industry is so intense, like a like Like I was talking to a fellow when he was a young man, I think a teenager, he says he said he w he saw porn and he says it was r it was really hardcore porn. I can't even comprehend what hardcore porn is, but this was in Europe. And I do know, like because my childhood friend worked in customs and you know, just the the degree or the like Like it's it's really gr like it intense. It's intense. And I think for me doing my podcast shows that how naive I talk about this. Because I am naive. But yet my naivete is is is sort of like the red flag and saying, Wake up you know, like, Hello You know, like like when my when my cousin says to her her her granddaughter, You're a girl, you were born a girl and you'll always be a girl and I said, Wait a minute. No Marina Crane (48:46.272) I said if she wants if sh whatever she whatever gender she chooses to be, she will s I was still I will still acknowledge her. I said there are eight billion people in the world today. Not all people are are living like this this life of heterosexuality. Not not all people are treating children with respect or women. And and and that's why I said, How many countries in the world still allow child marriage. And even sp in the United States, how many states still allow child marriages? And in northern Alberta, how many First Nations, anyway, Metis, still allow children to marry adults? Or like they give them away and live common law? like it it like again, when I was young and and I was sexually active, I I d you know, I did I sensed that these men were not like they I I knew that they maybe they were married. I like I didn't ask questions. But but the reality of it is like today when when you have when you have ages eighteen to twenty four on the software porn I don't know w I forget what what app it is, but fans only and they do this porn. The the the women who make the most money are eighteen to twenty four year old females. But get this the audience, the men who buy the porn are eighty million Americans, and those eighty million are married men. So when we're talking about what women give in terms of relationship with their partners, at some point Where do women stop where do women say to their partner enough like that's it? Or are they so blind and don't want to put boundaries down and give all that away when they are mothers of ch of boys and girls? 'Cause understand this, this sex trafficking isn't just with girls, it's also with boys. Marina Crane (51:10.048) Like understand this, the Republican Party when they have par when they have conferences in huge cities, that grinder website crashes because there are so many religious men, Republican men, who are setting up dates with other men. So the more we have conversations of bisexuality and what is healthy human sexuality, hopefully men will be a little more comfortable. With their sexuality. And so they're trying to coerce women for some because what they feel shame and guilt that they're bisexual. That's that's just my opinion and my theory. And hey, what can you do? I live in a shoe. And as the fry bread burns will say the soap opera, because sometimes I feel like my podcast is a soap opera. because like people are go peeking into my world and going, my goodness, she's how old? She must be suffering from dementia and Alzheimer's. Okay. Topic justified white supremacy. Hey. What can you do when you live in a shoe? It had to be. Because how else could you justify in your mind, I'm gonna take this land from these Native Americans and then I'm gonna bring slaves over and I'm gonna steal their labor? There's no way to justify that other than God really loves me and He doesn't really like those folk as much. And and as a result it's okay for me to exploit them. How how is it justified? Is it justified by racism or something religious or how is this justified in the cultural deep ancient mind of the people that who did all of these actually? I really want to understand. Okay, so the idea of white supremacy has a really fascinating origin. It actually starts in Spain. United States is definitely see, wouldn't he this this is his handle. V-E-E-R-N-E-T-W-O-R-K. Marina Crane (53:19.936) Like y like when you look it up and you'd look at the conquistadors or you look at Spain and the S like the conquest or the what what they they murdered and killed a lot of Catholics? Like because Catholicism was rampant in Spain. And understand this. When when a Mormon couple get married, they're they're they're married in the temple. and and so they're sealed for time and all eternity. And at the same time too, their children, when their children are born, they're born in the coven. And so again, I'm talking you gotta think of this as abstract, okay, 'cause I'm using this in terms of Catholicism and other religious dog doctrine. So understand this. It so anybody who who is not Mormon, who who doesn't who's who does who doesn't practice this in church and and every in every doctrine there because they call themselves a convert church, like all religions are convert churches, including the Spanish Inquisition in the 1500s, was based on conversion. And who did this who did the Spanish Inquisition kill and murder in the millions? They they did that to other Catholics. But it was a specific group of Catholics they killed. They killed the converts. They kill the converts that were Jewish and Muslim who convert converted to coloss colo Catholicism because it in their notion, like we're we're doing you a favor. We're we're gonna murder the bejesus out of you because hell is worse than what we're gonna give you and we're sparing you. So so understand this in terms of Mormonism. you know, the it's a convert church. So when they're converting indigenous people, Native Americans, who they call Lamanites or even black people, and and understand the notion of black people too, because it gets a little horrific here too, okay? Understand this. Those are converts in the Mormon church. That means there's no value in them because they're not born of the coven. Okay? White supremacy, they're not born of the coven. So they're expendable. Marina Crane (55:42.041) You know, poo-poo, right? Because they're not gonna amount to anything because their skin color. Now understand this in th which is a little different than other doctrine in k in in other religious formats. Mormonism believes that there's a planet out there and and that there's God who has thousands of w ch women who he impregnates And those children, he plants them all over the universe and galaxy, you know, billions and billions of lives he's, you know, implanted all over the world. And and lo and behold, there's Earth. And he sends his his the these spirit beings, these the the ch It sounds so preposterous, but I'm telling you, when I I can this is really uncomfortable me to talk about. When I was fifteen I I I was in an Indian residential school and there was a busload of us where they were called the Singing Indians. Okay, get this. Really? That's what we were called from Portage La Prairie. We to came on a bus from Manitoba all the way to Disneyland in California. En route we passed through Utah and I remember stopping where they stopped at the bus depot in Salt Lake City. We all got out to stretch and lo and behold, there were a whole busload, a skiing trip of white Mormon teenagers. I'm a teenager too, okay? So I'm looking at these white kids and believe me, I was appalled. their sexuality was so extreme. You know, and and in hindsight, like I spent over ten years in Utah. I went to Brigham University, I studied all their scriptures, and yet there are some things I didn't know. Like about that planet out there that is you c y you gotta you gotta really, you know, look at it because it's it's outrageous. Understand this. The people who are born of the coven Marina Crane (57:47.189) are are God's chosen. Okay, so that means those white people who are Mormons, they're not from Earth. They're raised to believe that they're aliens from another planet. And of course, you know, when I look at it as a teenager and I see all these white kids, you know, just openly hugging and kissing and you know just h like in in it in public, i in the bu in the bus terminal And I'm going, how could they be so openly just sexual? Because they're they're raised in the coven. They don't see themselves as human beings or with any consequences because they're aliens. And they've been indoctrinated into Mormonism to to know that they're the chosen people, because they're in the true church. And anybody else who's watching, especially me and any other Native Americans who are in that bus depot, they're they're they're performing. Because w we're we're we're we're nothing. We're the Lamanite. We're we're we're on the planet Earth. We're we're we're we're in hell. Planet Earth is is not a good place. We're the bottom of the pyramid here. We're in the caste system that's the lowest of the low to be a human being on Earth. Whereas the chosen who are in the coven are aliens who were implanted by their Heavenly Father in some planet out there. that that has thousands of wives who spreads their seed across the universe. I kid you not, if you think I'm bullshitting and lying, look it up. I can't even remember the name of the planet. And and yet, okay, understand this. When it comes to conversion and like I say, the Spanish Inquisition and and I talk about Mormonism and even right now what's happening in the United States with ICE Marina Crane (59:54.197) and and people looking at the indigenous people who were were born and raised for thousands of years in the Americas as still being of the earth at the bottom of the caste system that we have to be to shift away to Panama or someplace. That that whole concept is still in place with Republicans or just in terms of s white supremacy, it's so sickening. It's so sickening because again, this is a religion that was created recreated by a a man who has been documented as a pedophile. And and this whole notion of the you know, everybody who is born in the coven are are aliens and and that eventually when they you do all this work on earth you're protecting yourself from from pagans like the Lamanites and the blacks because you know well we we we weren't part of that whole conversion because we chose to fight with Satan. Yes, believe it or not. I mean there's a reason why I do my podcast and I talk about cults. I went to a ritual abuse conference at Brigham Young University and there was a lady there who had 30 documented 30 personalities her father and her brother and there was a whole small group of to of people in a small town in southern Utah who were culted like they I mean Mormonism is a cult to begin with. But but just ritual abuse to the point of killing babies and impregnating just like when we talk about trafficking, this was this was within the congregation where they trafficked children within within their circle of Marina Crane (01:01:53.561) priesthood holders and women who y anyway, you look at all all the stuff that they have about Mormonism, i it it's it's it's really Like you even look at the town of Provo, Utah where they have where there's Brigham Young University. That that town in itself is like Shangri-La because people who who rent understand, millionaires, like ex really well to do Mormon people send their children there and they want them to be protected. They they make sure that they they shop around for the best places to rent the houses off campus. Understand this. When when you're renting and and you're making sure they're gonna live by standards, standard means no sex. Okay, so you sign this paper at Brigham Young University, you're not gonna have sex unless you get married in the temple, la-di-da. Okay, so the so the landlords and the people who are renting know this. And even even people who are students at Brigham Young University know this. So if you have a vendetta against your roommate and you're both attending Brigham Young University, you can snitch on your roommate and have them excommunicated and expelled from Brigham Young University. So so the the notion of like you know purity and piety and all that is is is is like a fallacy. It's a false notion of safety. Because once you leave Provo and Oram, you're in the real world. You're in the real world of generations of Mormons who who are alcoholic. You know, have there's rodeo and buckskin bunnies, you you name it. And Utah is poor, okay? like I I I'm sorry. You had to live there to actually experience it, and I did, and I'm grateful that I have. And Marina Crane (01:03:52.649) whatever I can do to to ease your mind that you know there there were good things I mean there are good Mormon people too, just like there are good Catholics, good Anglicans, good Jewish, good Muslim, good h Hindus. I'm just saying the the more you understand a per a a a group of people and you and you and you're not like being naive about human sexuality, th you know, it's it's a tragic tragedy because in the long scheme and run of things, it's how we treat each other. And and so I go back to my cousin, the one who had been coaching me to to die. Like I said, even th before, like You know, you had this one, two, three strikes, you're out. Well, believe me, I'm not waiting for the third strike. And like I had said before, there were other times when we'd have conversations where I'd debrief with other people. I said, Sh yeah, she told me not to do it, and I was wondering, what is she talking about? So well don't kill yourself and and even then I confronted her and said, At what point in the conversation did you think I was talking about killing myself? I said, Why do you think this? I didn't say nothing like that. And then and then for me to talk about like as you age and you you either quit your job or retire, that it's important to enjoy the the last years of your life and and that's in some countries like well I said Japan and sorry to my Japanese audience if I misunderstand this or misconstrue it, but the whole notion was that the suicide so that your children and your aunt your grandchildren can take your property and and like and your and the business and and and thrive from it so so that you're you're re so that they fill that void that that you left when when you've killed yourself. again, that that's a value and belief and and commendable because out of all the countries in the world who the d birth rate has dropped Marina Crane (01:06:02.818) The reality of like this is a very ancient civilization. So it's not something like a a conspiracy theory or something new. Now, again, this other thing that I'm going to play has to do with infidelity, because my cousin had an affair for over a decade, I think 17 years with a married man. And and it plays plays into context of how she sees women. Because understand this, she quit her job and in her community the chief is a young woman who is a who is a lawyer. And in the community where my cousin comes from, her her chief is also female. So you know, when we talk about women and we talk about misogyny and lateral violence, I want you to think about this whole point of self respect and fidelity and how women who cheat who who cheat with married men their their mindset. So hopefully this gives you some insight into my my cousin's life and other women like her. Marina Crane (01:07:17.302) It says when a wom this is a vulnerable understore understore underscore gangster. When a woman desires another woman's man, here's what's happening. It's not that she is in love with him. It's not that she finds him fascinating. And it's not that she would want him if she he wasn't this other woman's partner. Let's break these down one by one. One, she doesn't love him. Contrary to social belief, love is not something that happens out of our control. It is something we create by the way we think about someone. Why most people don't fall in love with a married man or women or w woman is su is because in their minds it's not an option. They don't create romantic thoughts about them in their minds, and therefore no romantic feelings. It is our thoughts that translate into feelings, and our thoughts are conditioned. What we are attracted to and what we are repelled by is programmed into us by society, trauma, and belief systems. The reason such a woman starts having romantic thoughts and feelings about someone else's man has more to do with their partner, the other woman than him. She has a negative admiration for his partner, AK jealousy. So in other words, my cousin was jealous of this man's wife. And she wants what she has. Now understand, this man that she had an affair with was a very handsome traditional man who had was one of the first indigenous police officers in Winnipeg. And then later when he married he stayed in his home community. Now th she cannot admit that she wants to be like her. So in other words, my cousin could not want to admit that she wants to be like Marina Crane (01:09:34.809) His name was Frank, like Frank's wife. So she has to unconsciously, unconscious, or this unconscious urge to prove to herself that she is better than her. And what better way to achieve that than by making this man leave his woman and choose her instead? And the thing is like even in the conversations I've had with her when she disclosed she was having this she had this affair, mind you, the fellow has passed away now. His his widow is still alive. But the reality of it is like she says, it was it was so good, Maureen. I wish you could have experienced what I experienced with him. And and she says, But you know, the things that she couldn't do for him which makes sense in what they're saying here about about Her and women who the infidelity. Number two, she does not find him fascinating. So, in other words, it's a fallacy when she sees Frank as something fascinating. She is actually fascinated with his woman, and what makes him fascinating is her thinking what does that woman see in him? He must be special if she loves him. Now, this woman, you know, she had children with him. And she's a traditional woman. I don't really know her, but but again too, here's my cousin. But of course, this is unconscious to her. That's my cousin. She protects her own insecurities and self-hatred onto other women to feel better about herself. And she had said this to me at one time. She says, Marina, I wish I were you. Okay, so a lot of things have been adding up s you know, consciously about why I've chosen to just not be a friend to her and to not have contact with her. Now it goes on to say, and she then on is on a mission to prove to this man that she is better for him than his partner. And she has said that. She said, we have you know, intellectual conversations, like trying to prove that she's better than his his wife. Number three, she would not want him if he wasn't Marina Crane (01:11:51.245) this other woman's man. Okay, so again, you know, if he was single, sh she wouldn't be interested in him. Sh had she met this man in other circumstances, she would not have the same interest in him. He got the credit points in her eyes from his connection to this woman she is jealous of. See, and that's the notion. That is the critical notion is that she doesn't she's unaware of the jealousy she has towards me, j jealousy she had towards her her the place where she worked, the female chief, or even the community where she comes from who has a female chief. She can't even comprehend that that like that she is jealous. A woman in her d a woman in her dignity, self love and acceptance would never want another woman's man. Only to only a an insecure woman, a jealous woman, a wounded woman, who never grew up with being a spoilt child will do will do that. who grew up from being a spoiled child would do that. Okay, so she was a spoiled child, a wounded woman who n who never grew up from being was never a spoiled child. sorry. I'm reading it wrong. So yes, d but see this is the whole thing is like she she met the man in other if she had met him in other circumstances she would not have the same interest in him. He got credit points in her eyes from the connection she connection to the woman she is jealous of. And the thing is even though they they she stopped having an affair with him, the whole notion of the other woman, the whole notion of the other woman she has carried and still carries for decades. This Marina Crane (01:13:49.171) misogyny she carries. I mean it it's it's it's amazing that she hasn't sort of let go of that. So it's the little girl who has who was used to always getting what she wanted and her self worth was tied to her possessions is the woman who will want to get whatever another woman has that she thinks she doesn't. Like even in Indian residential school, bless my poor mother. You know, she bought me some perfume. It was beautiful scent. And and you know, and the thing is like the girls in Indian residential school they'd steal it because they they wanted it. And I mean I I mean I I have I have a story of stealing pennies. So you and the lesson I I was taught by by from from that was a lifelong lesson. But it i it and it's it's amazing because, you know, I I learned that as a child and and here's my cousin who still hasn't learnt this lesson. So because she has to have something she wants and she has to be the best. And she's cause she's always saying, I I have a degree. Well poo poo, hello. You know, this young chief that she that sh that was her boss is a lawyer and You know, and the female chief where she comes from in the community, like sh she's female. So if you are a woman who experienced betrayal and want to see it, you can save your relationship and rebuild trust and connection with your partner. So like see the thing is the it's like the Marina Crane (01:15:35.169) you you y you like trust and connection trust and connection with men that's that's the bottom that's the bottom line and like I like I said to my cousin I I'm grateful that that that I I have the respect of like I've felt the respect of a man and that it's important it's important for women to have that to feel that warm, fuzzy feeling of res of of respect. And and the fact that she has it and she's projecting all that hate onto a whole bunch of other women other than myself. But the fact that I know her intimately makes makes it dangerous because like one of the young women says, well who can protect her? If she's thinking this way, she's looking at her own self-harm. And there's nothing I can do 'cause I've tried to talk to her. Like whenever she's said things like, don't do it or like just just the the the how she sees herself, even in like just being tired, like exhausted, I c I call it battle fatigue. But she's sixty five. And and like I said, for decades she hasn't gone to therapy or looked after her mental health. The next one has to do with today is a bad day. Marina Crane (01:17:11.768) That's Nahani Fontaine. Marina Crane (01:17:22.856) Every day, indigenous women get up across this country from coast to coast to coast. Every single day, MMIWG, two us families get up from coast to coast to coast to talk about. The savage levels of violence against indigenous women, girls, and two-spirited. Every single day, there's not one day that our women don't get up to demand from governments, from every level, from society. To protect Indigenous women, girls, and two-spirited. Not a day goes by that we don't ask for that. And today is why. Today, what we learned today is why we ask people, why we ask governments, why we ask politicians of every stripe to protect Indigenous women and girls and two-spirited. To give the resources to that social service infrastructure that helps protect Indigenous women, girls, and two-spirited. There are consequences, and there are deadly consequences when we don't prioritize the protection of Indigenous women, girls, and two-spirited. And today is one of those days. This morning I sat at eight o'clock in the morning with the family of Morgan Harris. As Bernadette and I have done for many, many years. Sat with MMIWG families, not only here in Manitoba, but across the country. As they've had meetings with police, as they found out details, as they were notified of the of the death of their missing loved one. It is devastating. Marina Crane (01:19:37.484) devastating to see the heartbreak from family. Marina Crane (01:19:50.73) It's devastating. To be standing here again, to be having these conversations again. It's devastating to be standing here begging society to take this issue. Marina Crane (01:20:14.612) Seriously. Marina Crane (01:20:22.444) This individual went on a killing spree. He targeted and slaughtered indigenous women because he knew or thought that nobody would care. He targeted the most vulnerable of our society, those that we should be protecting the most. Marina Crane (01:20:52.8) And he treated them as if they were garbage. Marina Crane (01:20:59.822) Our women, our little girls, our two spirit, are not garbage. We are not disposable. We are sacred. And we're loved by our families. And the families that were mentioned today are no different. They loved their loved ones. And I I want to say that I am grateful to the Winnipeg Police Service. I'm very, very grateful that they were able to arrest this monster and get him off the streets on May 17th. God knows what he would have done in the span of just several weeks. He slaughtered four of our women. So I know that the WPS are looking for information on the fourth young woman that hasn't been identified. I'm encouraging folks to come forward if they have any information so that we can at least ease the pain and the suffering of another family here. Marina Crane (01:22:15.854) That is n Nahani Fontaine. She's a political leader in the Manitoba legislation. She MDP MLA for St. John. And this was something that gives you raw that like when I talk about indigenous women and our consciousness, it's the reality of the things that we have to face. and and how we talk to other Indigenous women in terms of gaining support and traction in in dealing with this. And so a lot of what I talk about when I say in terms of healthy human sexuality is is the notion of identity, the notion of why we are who we are today. And especially when it comes to how w we ourselves have neglected Yeah. our own spiritual self and and no matter how much we if we don't have the capacity to do self res self reflection or understand that we we need somebody's help to to understand our our our mental health. It it's it's one thing for like my cousin, to to be so battle fatigued that as the decades went by she neglected she neglected her her Like who sh who she sees in terms of respecting herself as an indigenous woman and and even the rigidity of it, like there there has to be some flexibility. And I truly believe as we get older as Indigenous women and and men. Marina Crane (01:24:07.896) That we have to have this flexibility in in understanding that we're we're we're how we grew up is different from how the next generation is growing up. And even how to talk about people and deal with things. Like like even talking to another person about my cousin and they're they're worried about her, and the reality of it is like Like for her for me to give a background and say, No, I I do reach out to her, I have talked to her, I'm not getting through to her. And and for her to be at such a low point in her life that she can't see indigenous women like the accomplishments of indigenous women. Marina Crane (01:25:00.436) And and the notion that like why did she why did she do what she did and understand like her point in in envying and looking at a man's partner. And that she it's reciprocal. It's it's the ripple effect 'cause I don't even I wasn't I didn't know her then, but I'm feeling the ripple effect from something that happened decades ago because she hasn't let go of it. Marina Crane (01:25:45.072) Okay, let's see if I can get this here. Mother says We're gonna kill up. They don't know their own history. So they're gonna learn today. They're gonna learn today. So Mother says, now that I have all of the information to give your audience the full, honest, documented picture, let's go. The story America, who were the Amer the European peasants? Who came through Ellis Island? The story America buried inside its own origin myth. The numbers first. Ellis Island operated from 1892 to 1954. Did y'all know that? Marina Crane (01:26:35.835) Peak between 1900 and 1914, approximately fifteen million people came through. Fifteen million Europeans came here. All the way up to nineteen fifty-four. No visas, no passports, no nothing. Forty percent of all Americans alive today are descended from someone who passed through Ellis Islands. Which means their history in this country didn't begin until minimum 1892. That is not a footnote. That is the foundation of what America calls its white majority, which we all know they're not they're not the majority, right? They don't know their own history. So that's Mama Trey Rip ribbon. That's M-A-M-A-T-R-A-Y W I L B O N. And okay, so understand this, like what she said, 15 million, 40% of the population that's European, that came in with no passports or anything. Understand, I'm I was born in nineteen seven fifty-two. So like Like that like that's like seventy seventy five, seventy six years ago. That that's just a fresh population of Europeans in in the United States. Now get this too. when when you look at the population of black Americans I think it's the same population as Canada. It's ten percent of the American population, which is equivalent to the Alberta the Canadian population. So imagine the whole country of Canada being black. Now you take that population and you look at you do the DNA of all the men. And understand like when they do the DNA of black American men, 70% can trace their DNA back to their fathers. Marina Crane (01:28:48.451) like their father's grandfather. Okay, and understand this, like like say say someone came from Nigeria and came into the United States and that parti the the grandchild or the great grandchild could do their DNA, they would show that the great grandfather came from Africa. I mean, even though like okay, what am I getting at? The majority, seventy percent of black American men their their genome, their their the one that's passed down from father to son is European. So a lot of this European influence in the United States of America has has been infiltrated by slavery. Like understand, when they stopped say slave slavery, they there was a hundred years of just breeding farms. And it those breeding farms created bot they were European men impregnating black women. And and so that's why the majority of black American men have their connection to white European men. okay, so all this in terms of having slaves. And again too, when we talk about that, we're talking about fancy boys and fancy girls and human trafficking. And then it even goes into like native the indigenous population where where they tried to create slaves out of out of indigenous children. And and so the whole hush-hush of of the Indian Act or the the grooming of of minorities is has been tried has been trying to be erased. with people who are denying denying Indian residential schools because the the the sugarcoating i is slavery or possession or or the taking of land or or the domination of of like like I said marrying marrying children. you know the the whole notion of that is is based on Europeans. Marina Crane (01:31:03.339) So I mean you can criticize me for all that you want to, but it's in the DNA. It's it's in the DNA when it comes to tracing the origins of the the male genome. And and even the things too that are that are most popular in terms of bloodlines and stuff like that when you follow the matriarchy. So anyway, I hope this podcast has been interesting to you. like I said, I I know some people are interested and have been listening. And again, there there's reasons why my cousin is who she is today. And it's not just the fact that she's indigenous or has an education. I'm talking about other women too who have had affairs with men. who who d you know weren't interested in the man, they were interested more in his partner and the possession of why she would be interested in such a man. And if he were single w would would of my cousin have been interested in him in the first place. So these things like are important. And I'm just grateful for the decisions I've made in my life. And like just The reality of like, no, I've I've had to just step back and not participate. Because in terms of participating, I I would have I would have been a misogynist. And I maybe in some degrees I I am in some ways in some things, but I'm willing to work at things and understand why I do the things I do, or even to understand and help myself be a better person and and navigate. navigate the things that are important. Now I think what's important in my podcast is is for you to like really look at my podcast when it comes to erodomania and limerence and also the the the versions of how minorities look look in terms of we'll call truth and reconciliation in canada or or cross-cultural orientation in terms of systemic racism Marina Crane (01:33:27.895) Okay, big words, big words. but again, like I said, I'm really grateful that people have been emailing me. I appreciate it. However, I do this podcast for free and and if you want to invite me, it it costs money. I I I like I like I said, I go to meetings in the city and I get paid. And Rightfully so, because in in some ways if I didn't get paid, people wouldn't really value my words. Okay, have a good day and it's Marina Crane (01:34:12.323) The twenty third of September.

Tuesday, 22 September 2026

Intentional harm can come from contempt, resentment, or unresolved anger

his is a rich, personal podcast transcript with strong themes around harm, boundaries, mental health, Indigenous identity, women's autonomy, systemic inequality, and personal experience. The main opportunity is not to change your message, but to make it clearer, more focused, and more persuasive for listeners. Overall strengths Authentic and emotionally honest voice. Strong storytelling through personal examples. Thought-provoking connections between personal experiences and broader social issues. Clear passion for advocating for Indigenous women, mental health, and boundaries. Reflective rather than purely argumentative in many sections. Main issues that weaken the piece 1. Too many topics competing for attention The podcast begins as a discussion about: harm and self-harm boundaries mental health stress in Indigenous communities But later expands into: misogyny workplace conflict Mormonism double consciousness racism whiteness Indigenous sovereignty women's health hysterectomies patriarchy singleness caste systems environmental spirituality A listener may struggle to understand the central point. Suggestion Choose one primary theme: "How unaddressed stress and poor boundaries create harm in our relationships and communities." Then connect everything back to that theme. For example: Story about cousin → boundaries Story about granddaughter → workplace stress Discussion of misogyny → boundaries and respect Women's health → advocating for oneself Everything should support the main argument. 2. The structure needs signposts The audience is often moved abruptly from one topic to another. For example: cousin workplace stress self-harm comments Mormonism Du Bois limerence misogyny women's health These transitions can feel disorienting. Suggestion Use clear transitions. Example: "This brings me to another issue I've been thinking about: how stress changes the way we treat one another." Or: "The experience with my cousin reminded me of a larger question about misogyny and power." These guide the listener through your thinking. 3. Reduce repetition There are many repeated phrases: "Like I said..." "The reality of it is..." "Again..." "You know..." "I think..." "And yet..." When used frequently, they weaken the impact. Example Current: "And the reality of it is, like the reality of it is, and yet the reality is..." Stronger: "What I'm realizing is that many women are carrying responsibilities that were never meant to be carried alone." Shorter. More direct. 4. Distinguish fact, opinion, and quotation Throughout the podcast you quote social media creators and commentators. Sometimes it becomes difficult to know: what Marina believes what a quoted speaker believes what is established research Suggestion Introduce quotations clearly. Example: "I recently heard an online commentator make the following argument, and while I don't agree with every part of it, one point stood out to me..." This gives listeners context. 5. Some claims need more nuance Statements such as: "Women were never supposed to be in relationships exclusively." or "Whiteness only created violence." or "People who intentionally hurt you hate you deeply." may alienate listeners because they are presented as universal truths. Stronger approach Instead of: "People who intentionally hurt you hate you." Try: "In some cases, intentional harm can come from contempt, resentment, or unresolved anger." This sounds more thoughtful and invites reflection rather than resistance. 6. Strengthen the opening The opening currently wanders before revealing the central idea. Current You introduce: harm self-harm boundaries feminine energy within the first minute. Stronger opening Example: "Today I want to talk about harm. Not just physical harm, but emotional harm. Specifically, how stress, resentment, and poor boundaries can lead people to hurt others, sometimes consciously and sometimes unconsciously. Over the past few weeks I've been reflecting on several experiences that forced me to think about this more deeply." That immediately tells listeners what the episode is about. 7. Create a stronger conclusion The podcast ends gradually rather than arriving at a clear takeaway. A conclusion might be: "What I've learned this week is that boundaries are not punishment. They're protection. They're how we preserve our mental health, our dignity, and our sense of self. Whether we're talking about family, community, work, or culture, we all have a responsibility to become more aware of the ways we project our stress onto others. Harm begins when we stop seeing each other clearly. Healing begins when we choose respect." This leaves listeners with a memorable final message. Content areas that could be condensed The following sections could be shortened significantly without losing meaning: Mormonism discussion Currently: several pages. Could become: "My sister's life took a very different path through Mormonism, and reflecting on that experience has made me think about how institutions shape how we see ourselves and others." Multiple quotations You include long excerpts from other speakers. Instead: summarize the key idea quote one powerful sentence discuss why it mattered to you This keeps your voice at the center. Repeated explanations of your cousin The story is important, but the key incident can be summarized: "After repeatedly making comments suggesting suicide when I had never expressed suicidal thoughts, and eventually telling me to 'take a pill and kill yourself,' I ended contact with her. That experience forced me to think more deeply about boundaries and emotional harm." That gives listeners the essential information quickly. Strongest themes worth emphasizing Your most powerful material appears to be: Boundaries as self-respect. How stress gets projected onto others. Indigenous women carrying disproportionate burdens. The importance of mental health. The difference between helping and enabling. Personal freedom and autonomy. Intergenerational patterns of caregiving and sacrifice. If the episode focused primarily on those themes, it would become much more cohesive and impactful. Suggested episode title When Stress Becomes Harm: Boundaries, Mental Health, and Respect The Cost of Carrying Everything Boundaries, Projection, and the Harm We Cause Respect, Freedom, and the Weight Women Carry Breaking the Cycle of Emotional Harm Summary The biggest improvement would be to narrow the focus, reduce repetition, and organize the material around one central argument. You have enough insight and personal experience here for several separate podcast episodes. Dividing this content into smaller episodes would likely make each message stronger and easier for listeners to absorb.
Marina Crane (00:01.698) Good afternoon. It's Marina Crane, Soutina, September twenty-sixt twenty-second, sorry. Well, I I just want to do my podcast on harm, harm reduction or self-harm or how we tend to harm others without I don't know, I I'd like to think that it's unintentional. But in recent cases, just involving myself, I think it's intentional. And I think sometimes we're a l a little bit naive in terms of our own feminine energy to think that we have nothing to do with it. Like it's it's you know, like there's a reason why people treat us the way we do the way they do. And again, too. You know, what boundaries do we need to put in place? you know, especially like if we haven't had practice you know, establishing certain boundaries, or even respected for putting boundaries up. So this morning I went to go get some blood work and I bumped into a young woman who was like a really her her grandmother was was one of my best friends and she's been gone maybe twenty years now. And I I knew her for like thirty years and I said to her granddaughter, I said, you know, your grandmother, no matter what horrible things her children ever said to her in confronting her or having a fight with her, not once did she ever tell me anything about what they said to her. she you know, she just never talked about her children at all. And I said that takes a lot of boundaries to do that. I said, especially when in today the people that I know who are seniors and who are looking after their children have nothing good to say about their own children, even even to the fact that they're enabling them by looking after them in their forties and their grandchildren, without even saying to them, you know, you need to Marina Crane (02:14.576) get out on your own and you know, pay rent or whatever. You know, get a job. Like I I c like I I've I've lived my whole life independently. And just to give up like the it's like I can't even imagine if I were in prison to give up my freedom And so I I can't even comprehend why adult children would would not understand that being codependent to a parent is not free. And like how free are you? So anyway, my my late friend's best my late friend's granddaughter was was really groomed by my best friend. And I I used to wonder, well, why is she doing all this, paying all this extra money? And then I said to my friend, I said, Well, I said, when you're gone, she'll realize like what you gave her and she'll know not to settle for less. But the reality of it is she had to take three months off from work from stress leave because she said the new chief and counsel are just so demanding. And yet, That's what happened with my cousin in another province on another First Nations that she as she put it, was forced to quit. But it is her decision. And she had been saying this for quite a while, like over a year. Now, why am I bringing this up again is because this cousin, who was a d a health director and who was all qualified, like got these workshops done by the federal government and you know, said, I'm educated and yet look at what she's done. Sometimes I'd talk to her and I'm on the phone with her and all of a sudden she'll say, Don't do it, and I'm going, What do you mean? Don't kill yourself. And I said, I'd say to her, what is it in the conversation that we've just had that leads you to think that I'm gonna kill myself? Like like I'm confronting her, asking her, Why is she saying these things to me? Marina Crane (04:23.722) And then last week when she said, Okay Marina, take a pill, kill yourself. Like it it's gone from like a s like I I can't comprehend that. I d I I blocked her, I I took her off my social media, I I just thought that's it, that's it. And you know, talking to this young woman this morning and she just looks stressed out and the doctor had given her three three months leave from work because of the stress. And she said it's the new chief in council. Now, our new chief in council have put down a lot of boundaries and have made a lot of restrictions in terms of spending as well. So a lot of people find it very stressful because I I truly believe maybe they got away with a lot of things and now the new chief in counsel aren't allowing that. And and rightfully so, like my my cousin in Manitoba, they had a a consultant firm come in to help with management and it was this consultant who her and the consultant had had mixed words through emails and and so she just couldn't handle you know the the the the emails and what was being said about her. So she quit, but again, her projecting all this stuff onto me, who like I represent someone who's happy and satisfied with my own life. And like I said to this young woman this morning, I said, you know, you're a young woman, you know, it's important to look after your mental health. The reality of it is like when you're young and you're dealing with your mental health, putting boundaries down, it it's the foundation of the you know, the rest of your life as you move forward, how you're going to deal with mental health issues as they apply to you because stress doesn't go away. It's just how you how you handle it and how you talk about it. So, Marina Crane (06:33.088) And I think that's why like for this podcast, especially for indigenous women, it's a a very stressful job. like this young woman she chose not to get married, she chose to have children so that they would be on our ban list. And this and the same with my cousin. She well, she she married someone within the community, but they've been divorced ever since her children were children. And so like when I talk about this the caste system within First Nations and Udur Metis communities, you know, I'm talking about the status of women in in terms of like what like in terms of misogyny as well. Because don't forget too, this whole lesson that I've learned with my cousin in Manitoba is that she's a misogynist. And I said to this young woman, I said, There are people who are misogynists and you can't change them. You're working with them, so how do you work with people that are are misogynist? And I did say to her, I said, Your grandmother, like you think you're have a difficult time working with misogyny. I said, It was worse during your grandmother's working t working life. And and it's true. You know, I th I I think a lot of times, When we look at things and we realize, did I go through that? And you're going, Yes, you did. So hopefully, hopefully she finds some peace because she has two two three children. She's a single mother. And the stress of like what happens if something happens to her? Who's gonna look after her children? And again, bottom line is sovereignty. Who has sovereignty over her children? or any for any children who are in my community. Like it's a very stressful situation for for women. But there's gotta be a point where the child grows up and starts, you know, getting an education or working and having boundaries like like my cousin's children. I you know, I I I looked after my niece, she's in her twenties now. Marina Crane (08:45.704) And I you know, I I had some boundaries and I said you can do like I never even checked to see how she took care of her room 'cause sh I said to her, You're you're you're you're a functioning human being. I'm not treating you like a child, I'm treating you like a roommate. And you know, all I expect is you to help with the dishes and take out the garbage. And and yet that was just a simple chore, but yet she didn't know how to handle that. So a lot of these things that I encounter with people that I've grown up, especially indigenous women who have are either looking after their grandchildren or their adult children. I think I'm I'm at a point where I can see the difference in terms of respect and the reality of it is like even the poorest of the poor, like the like my other cousin, her grandchildren are happy to see me. They show me respect. And yet yet you know other people, like even my family, I I don't know some of them. So you know how how how do I interact with them if I've never really spoken to them? Now the other the other day I did do a podcast and I I I had I had recorded some things and I wanted to bring light to just the repeat the certain the certain ones that I really thought that you know hit home. And I hope it hit ho it hits home for you. It hits you too because I don't know if it's the cost of living or just what's happening in the world today. But I but I just find that there are more people that are being stressed and and more people who are just taking it out on other people. And again I I I I'm maybe I'm say I wanna put this podcast out so that you become more self aware in in how you think about other people. This particular fellow, again you gotta be have some critical thinking here. But this fellow let's see. My Trump supporters don't care that Trump is lying to them. Marina Crane (11:05.238) If someone damaged you on purpose, I want you to hear me clearly. This wasn't a mistake. This wasn't a moment of weakness. It was a decision. And decisions have meaning. A person who chooses to break you with intention isn't confused. They hate you deeply and they want you to feel it. Now the real question isn't about why they did it. The real question is, what will you do about it? When someone causes intentional harm, it reveals far more than just a moment. Of cruelty. It exposes a deeper psychological state, contempt. Contempt is not just anger or dislike. It's the belief that the other person is beneath consideration, unworthy of empathy, or even less than human. And once that belief takes root in someone's heart and mind, it becomes fertile ground for destructive behavior. People don't damage others intentionally unless they've first stripped them of value. In their internal framework. That's why intentional harm is one of the clearest signs of deep-seated hatred. To intentionally harm someone, a person must go through a process of mental justification. They don't just act, they rationalize the act beforehand. They tell themselves stories. They deserved it. They're weak. They'll never change. They brought this on themselves. These internal narratives are not innocent, they're weapons. This is from Laura it's L A U R A K A E R C H E R. And and so like like when it has to to do with contempt and just them hating you. And like when I have my cousin like this is what they say, one, two, three strikes you're out. Well the first strike was when she was telling me not to Marina Crane (13:09.012) like not to kill myself when I didn't even utter anything about wanting to kill myself. And she just I said, W w what you led you led y leads you to believe that I'm thinking of killing myself. And then like I said last week it was like, you know, my my saying to her that like I'm I'm trying to hint to her that and obviously she understood that you know that her you know, she's got children who are in their forties. And and not just that, there are a lot of other older women like her who are holding on to their jobs in their seventies, not enjoying their lives, like they could be traveling, enjoying life, and instead they're paying their children adult children's bills. And Like I I I Marina Crane (14:10.006) I live comfortably. I I there there is no way that I I feel that if I were enabling somebody that I'm giving them a good shake at what the world's all about because you know they they people have to grow up and learn how to pay their bills and put boundaries down. But you know, if if people don't understand that even in with within their culture then then you know, what what is it that they're teaching? Marina Crane (14:45.194) I just like I said, I Marina Crane (14:50.646) if she has so much contempt for me because because I don't I don't have that I don't I don't have that in me to to to want to look after an adult. Marina Crane (15:07.284) I I I think I think more so my my sister called me from Utah. She's coming home tomorrow from the and she said there were a lot of people at the funeral asking where I was and I said to her, they're probably I said, I I said I she says, I wish I put got their names. I said, Well, they were probably wondering if I ever w got through to the Mormon temple. I was being sarcastic. you know, because really living in in Provo, Utah is like living in Shangri-La, a false a false society because like and I think I mentioned in a previous podcast, when you're renting an apartment or or renting a home and you're living on like 'cause the whole t town is a university town. And and so, you know, people who are renting know that you're a student and there's BYU standards. So a lot of times when some roommates are being promiscuous or not living the standards of according to Brigham the university, roommates can actually be snitches and anonymously call s university standards on on the on your housing and stuff. And you can actually get expelled from the university for not following the standards. So it it's really like in in real life that doesn't happen, but in that town it does. So that's why I say my li my sister has lived in Shangri-La forty years. Marina Crane (16:53.833) Okay, so I'm going to like I said, there's a lot of things that are both have been bothering me. Black people are forced to always be thinking about how racist white people see them. This causes them to develop a double consciousness that explains much of the psychological suffering, in this case derived from racism, but which we can generalize to many things. This is the theory of double consciousness by sociologist and activist Du Bois, who suffered the consequences of racial segregation in the United States. Blacks and whites separated by a color line not so long ago in schools, universities, and public transportation. He wanted to explain how this line doesn't just affect equal opportunity, which of course it does, but goes further. He spoke of the soul. The soul understood as black people being unable to reach their full potential as human beings. And he used a and that's like Indian residential school or even my going to a school in the city that I'm unable to reach my potential. Now that's not saying I I believe that. I'm saying systemic racism. Okay, 'cause there's this what do you call Erotomania, like it has to do with the psychological reality of of the mind. Not not the soul, but she's talking about the soul too, okay, because it's double. There's the the mind and the soul. And for me I use the soul in terms of limerence, this fantasy that we create, because we're trying to have discourse with with people who don't understand the culture and and dealing it in terms of h h human sexuality. Marina Crane (18:34.959) Because because it's a fantasy. Of the noble savage and and like like like say of Dracula and you know like that whole science fiction notion of going going to the forbidden fruit type of thing. So there's that so those two things in terms of the soul, because like if you if you're if you're a vampire, like the only way you can actually you know become human is to is to be killed, right? Or like so so there's whereas whereas the other sense too the there's they're they're hunting to kill you. So again I'm talking in terms of murdered and missing indigenous women or even black women. There there's this dichotomy of of the double the double i the double identity that that she's talking about that has been theorized before. reach their full potential as human beings. And he used the metaphor of the veil. White people see black people through that veil and don't see them as equals, but black people are forced to see themselves through that same veil. And this creates an identity conflict. There is the authentic self and the social self, what I know I represent in society and what I have to adapt to, the second consciousness. Or another example occurs to me. As a woman, you look in the mirror and continuously see yourself through the male gaze. It's a super useful theory for explaining many nuances surrounding psychological suffering on these topics. And it leaves us with a very important message that this veil must disappear. Black people are forced to always be thinking of See, so when I talk about this veil disappearing is is to understand it's to understand as someone who comes into the conversation or into the reality, like what is your mindset? Marina Crane (20:33.173) Are you more focused on the erodomania or are you more focused on the limerence? Because in the conversation, when we're talking about life, there there's always going to be like the pr the person sh who is is gazing upon the the the assumption that the society will never amount to anything. And and I use my sister as an example in Mormonism. when they were having the eulogy and talking at the funeral, the a lot of the men got up and had said, yes, my yes, Edna, my sister's name is Edna. She she went home like this is forty years ago and one of one of the one of the priesthood holders who looked like Santa Claus had told her, Go back to Provo and you find your husband. it just it just irks me that that there there are these white people, white men in a religion Who are forming this gaze, this erotic limerence gaze on my sister, saying, you know, if you stay here and you live in your community in Sutina, you're gonna be experiencing erotic. You're you know, like that is bad. You could die, like you know, like you can get your the beaten the bejesus beaten out of you. Go back to the states, find someone who Is a returned missionary, and again, they're focusing on her in limerence. Find someone who's in love with you. And that's what she did in Limerids. But the reality of it is she believed the narrative that that she she looks white, she can pass for white, but she also believed the narrative that the erotic within the community that I live in now is dangerous. And and that's why she's afraid to move home. And that's forty years of indoctrination. Okay, so that's why when we talk about the soul and and how the soul is trying to find peace. I mean my my sister called me and wanted to know if I wanted to talk to my niece, and I said, No, it's okay. And I expla explained to my younger sister, I don't know my sister or her children. Marina Crane (22:52.105) Again, because, you know, the the reality like like like in in my reality, my soul I will never reach her potential 'cause she's been to the Mormon temple. She's been a a returned missionary. Her and her husband have paid tithing, they lasted forty years. Yay, you know, they didn't get divorced or or who knows if they even messed around with each with other people. I don't know and I really don't care. But the reality of it is like they passed the test. You know, like that that Mormonism test. And and the thing is like, who's playing it? I wasn't playing it. But she she obviously was and continues. That's why even though we're sisters, it's forty years of coercive control, forty years of assuming that everything that I've been living in or peop her siblings have been living in in in our communities is based on erotic. And yet her lens and how white Mormons are seeing her is is through eroticism, through through lim the lens of limerence. The the the the the whole point of like repent, repent. You know, you need to deliver these standards before we accept you. Okay, so I have to address the fallacy of white proximity because I got enough DMs about it, and I can't just sit here and talk about how amazing Islam is without addressing something that a actually as as a society we all need to address. So a lot of times people have been taught to want something that never created anything. Look at what actually keeps people alive. Medicine, food, systems, water, energy, communication. The innovations that actually make survival possible. When you trace where they came from, it's not whiteness. It never was. Marina Crane (24:40.175) Whiteness didn't create that. Whiteness took it, renamed it, claimed it as its own. And here's what you have to understand. Whiteness is not a real thing. It's a construct. That means that it was it's something that was built. It was made up. It was designed to function a certain way. A construct is what happens when people agree to believe something that isn't true and then build systems to make that lie feel real, to make people act like it's real, to make it seem natural when it's entirely artificial. The reality is that whiteness got constructed through violence, through slavery, through colonialism, through laws that said certain people own things and certain people are things, through institutions that locked certain people out and let certain people in, through educational systems that wrote certain people into history and erased others. That's the machine. That makes a construct feel real. You know what whiteness actually created? Violence. That's the only thing it ever brought. The violence to steal labor, the violence to control who gets into rooms where thinking is happening, the violence to rewrite history, that takes a lot of work. It takes a lot of machinery and it takes a lot of force. If whiteness was actually superior, would it need all that? If we're talking about superiority, then it's certainly in what you produce, what you leave behind, what you What your work does for people, and by that measure, black and brown people have been far superior. That's just the facts. So when your child, your daughter or son, brings home a black or brown person and you say no, understand what you're actually chasing. You're chasing a construct, something that's not real, something that was built on theft. You're chasing a power that comes from oppression, and somehow you think it's superior. You're not chasing innovation, you're not chasing creation, you're not chasing the future, you're confusing dumb. With capability and ability. You're calling theft great and essentially reaching for proximity to something that's very hollow. Black and brown people built what the entire world runs on. That's where superiority lives. In the building, in the making, and what endures because it works, more importantly, because it benefits humanity. That is what's real, that's measurable, that's what the world depends on. So we really have to stop reaching for proximity to a construct and start looking at what your own people create. Marina Crane (26:55.095) Created Fiamania. That is Sacred F fit raw R A. What can I say? You know, it it's it's just the reality of of Marina Crane (27:19.103) It's the reality of being indigenous or just like w because the land means something. The land means something and and it's important that we understand that we're here to take care of the earth. We are power. But they have separated us from our spiritual connection to the earth. So people feel powerless. We look at the oppressor and we look at the enemy because they have the most guns and the most lies and the most money. People start to feel powerless. We are a power. We are a natural part of the creation. We were put here on the sacred Mother Earth to serve a purpose. And somewhere in the history of people, we're forgetting what the purpose is. The purpose is to honor the earth. The purpose is to protect the earth. The purpose is to live in balance with the earth. The earth is our mother. Take care of the earth. They pollute this oppressor, this machine that this machine that has gone mad and run among it is berserk. They keep telling us, you know, progress. They keep telling us face reality. Well, let's deal with reality. The reality is the earth can no longer take this. That's from Ota O Films. And that person who was talking was the late John Trudeau. So as a as a woman and as a woman who hasn't had a partner or shared my energy or given my energy to to patriarchy or or to build up the patriarch. it it's important to understand how freeing or how free I've been and the fact that I'm constantly putting boundaries and and trying to explain to Indigenous women what it feels like or what it is to be to be free of that and and to to enjoy to enjoy our lives. for me and how I understand relationships and intimacy is has been a long Marina Crane (29:28.013) hot fought out narrative and understanding and trying to understand why at the same time twenty years ago when Nathan Chasinghorse came here and I and I started warning people and I and I had a hard time wondering why nobody was listening to me. And today it's like because they didn't respect me. It isn't because I I didn't respect myself is because they didn't respect me. And and the thing is, like even today, you know, I can't teach my cousin to respect me. It's part of who she is and part of the choices that she made in her life so that she doesn't understand how to respect herself. And at at the same time too there's also that fear because they're single women, they're single parents raising their children for decades. And then they become seniors. And right until the bitter end, they're still they're still taking care of their children. And and with no sense of respect, even even in terms of relationships with relationships with their children. And and I think that was the bottom line too with my late friend and her granddaughter is She never spoke badly of her children, yet I know they had to have called her down, they had to have a conflict with her because there was so much violence that happened when she was with their father. And and she told me stories about how cruel he was. And so but she never she never said anything to me about how upset they were to her or what they've ever said to her. And and I think because of that, she really never took care of herself. Marina Crane (31:16.912) And she died at the age of sixty-three. Women were never supposed to be in relationships exclusively. There's a difference between having a relationship and being exclusive. in relationship and how you associate that with your identity. And so the problem with women is that when women are highly spiritually gifted, they may have psychic abilities, they may have the ability to talk to or or see spirits, they may have all these different avenues of talents that they incarnate it with that are here to serve a very specific purpose. But what happens is when women get in relationships, they have to merge their nervous system. So their partner actually borrows theirs. And when someone is borrowing your nervous system, you can't maintain your capacity and therefore you can't sustain the gifts that you have. But when you're in relationships and you're bound by marriage, your gifts can't fully come online. That doesn't mean you can't tap into them. And this is what a lot of people don't realize. I know some sisters right now who are very spiritual, spiritually powerful and have that authority, but that authority is diluted because they're compensating for their man's frequency. Patriarchy using Relationships as a tool to hijack the feminine is the reason why we have these Fortune 500 companies in in primary millionaire and billionaire statuses being occupied by men because when they're in relationships with women, the power that he shows up as having when he's the face of the company or he's the face of these organizations is actually being usurped from the mother in the equation. Marina Crane (33:00.3) So when you are tapped into your gifts, which means you have to be single and navigate relationships rather than being in them as a woman. You will be compensated by the universe. The universe will compensate you forward because you are living your authentic purpose, which means that you are fulfilling your soul contract. And that's what patriarchy doesn't want you to know. Patriarchy wants you to think that you the masculine and feminine corresponds to genders, and that every woman needs a man in order to get in tune with herself. But that's the illusion, and that's the basis of the narcissistic spell. So in my programs and my community, I help women break the spell and learn how. to rewrite the script of how to be the best and most authentic version of themselves. And that's from R E V S A J A. Women are not supposed to be in relationships. So again, like I said, I've been my whole life I chose I chose this and It's just it's just the reality of of what what I I understand, what what I've seen and and how like I've taken it upon myself. Now I know there is there was one video that of a lady who was talking about Marina Crane (34:40.791) What was she talking about? She was talking about Marina Crane (34:51.179) She was talking about her she was talking about women. She was talking about women. And she was talking about the health of women. And Marina Crane (35:07.671) just the whole notion of of how sometimes women in terms of their health and what they need to do. Marina Crane (35:27.585) There are a lot of times that I wish I had I had actually like I thought I I thought I knew where I'd put these these these I like I I really I'm sorry, I have to apologize. But I hope you understand too, like a lot of this stuff that I I do talk about, I've had some time to to to really think about them. and and some of them, like I said, it's it's interesting how Marina Crane (36:07.533) how we sort of just get get caught up in things. Now I'm not too sure if there are books too like a that I but Marina Crane (36:24.343) Some of the men heard it So books and research and Marina Crane (36:34.293) I guess the the bottom line here is is like the the people that that you see every day. And the thing is like I I I ha I think that I think the whole po point of my confusion too is that like I live by myself. I I I told my sister, I said, if anything I've learned and even for my for me to to block my cousin It is and and not just that, like to block this lady from California too. I is the reality is like they they really or are not my friends. like my my friend in Edmonton, everything she's done for her family, like in terms of of dances and cooking and community gatherings, like like I've done that too. I've done that too. And the reality of it is like you know, when is it our time to enjoy our lives? And it's just that reality. So we're constantly putting trying to keep our boundaries in place. And I was talking with a a lady who she's Muslim and she's been divorced for three years and we're talking about energy and how like like like that one lady says, you know, when you're in a relationship you're giving that energy to the patriarchy. And and all these women who who have certain gifts and powers, like like even little things that a woman wanted to do years ago. hundreds of years ago they thought she was a witch. And even like in like in this in this day and age when people want when women want to talk about what things that were happening to their bodies, it's like, let's just give her a hysterectomy. You know, just just do this, like, you know, like without even understanding the the c like what's happening to the female body. Marina Crane (38:30.631) And that's that was one of the things that I had put down in terms of wanting to have one of the ladies have a discussion on it was was just that, is is the the notion that sometimes people people they don't realize just just what women go through. Marina Crane (38:57.727) I recently made a video about how the rates of hysterectomy in the country it Marina Crane (39:07.765) It's it it is a reflection of the modern day burning of the lip. Sorry, it's it's my internet. Marina Crane (39:21.773) I don't know if you can still hear I think my point was messed entirely, so just want to talk about it. What I mean is There is a point in human Her name is Held Motherhood. There was a point in human history where women had such deep See to be clear, it's not just modern medicine and modern medicine does have a place in women's health care. It's the entire environment in which we live that does not serve knowledge and relationship with their bodies, such dominion over choice of says we live that does not serve vitality and optimal health, what our day-to-day lives look like, the way we perceive it and value care and tending to our bodies. Like when and if they wanted children was considered, especially by the church, sorcery. It's so ingrained it's like you can't even see the color of the water has changed when you're swimming in the water every day. But once you see it you can't unsee it. In witchcraft and women were burned at the stake for it systematically. So many women, in fact, that much of this knowledge was lost. Today, we still live in a world where we can feel the repercussions of that. Because the dominant paradigm of health for a woman's body is the modern medical system. Marina Crane (40:58.581) That believes that our knowledge of our own bodies is paternalized into some outsized source, that our uterus is an inconvenience that is pathologized, that is suppressed, that is silenced, instead of us being in deep relationship with it. And I do believe that today there is a resurgence and that practitioners are remembering that we do have this sovereignty. It is our birthright as women to have this kind of relationship with our bodies. And that if we practice this kind of care, That the rates of pelvic health issues would be nowhere near the numbers that they are at today. And so this is my point: is that we don't practice this kind of care for our bodies as modern people and modern women, and that the dominant health paradigm that we are practicing is systemically taking our power away from us. I recently made video about how the rates of hysterectomy in this country is a reflection of the modern day burning of the witches. I think my point was messed entirely, so just want to talk about it. What I mean is that there was a point in human history where women had such deep knowledge and relationship with their bodies, such dominion over choices like when and if they wanted children, was considered, especially by the church, sorcery in witchcraft and Women were burned at the stake for it systematically. So many women, in fact, that much of this knowledge was lost. Today, we still live in a world where we can feel the repercussions of that. Because the dominant paradigm of health for a woman's body is the modern medical system that believes that our knowledge of our own bodies is paternalized into some outsized source, that our uterus is an inconvenience, that is pathologized, that is suppressed. That is silenced instead of us being in deep relationship with it. And I do believe that today there is a resurgence, and that practitioners are remembering that we do have this sovereignty. It is our birthright as women to have this kind of relationship with our bodies. And that if we practice this kind of care, that the rates of pelvic health issues would be nowhere near the numbers that they are at today. And so this is my point: is that we don't practice this kind of care for. Marina Crane (43:20.663) Our bodies as modern people and modern women, and that the dominant health paradigm that we are practicing is systemically taking our power away from us. Even talking to the cousin that I that I blocked, talking to her about the choices I made not to be sexually active, not to have children, even the fact like my own sister that I was raised with, like a twin. like the systemic doctrine of Mormonism that I'm that I'm gay, like I'm shunned because they do not like homosexuality. And yet it has to do with my choice, my choice. And even in terms of the paradigm, like even with the Indian Act and the the caste system within in First Nations and within Metis communities, is that when you choose not to have children, you're at the lowest of the low. And then and then like I said, women like my my late friend's granddaughter to have three children with with no partner. That's the next level up. Then you have women who have married in or women who've grown up here who married men within the community. That's another level up. Okay, so you've got already three levels of sys of a caste system. Then from there you go up one more where it's just our men, our brothers, our uncles, our our fathers, all that, our grandfathers. That's the next level. Then on top of that level, you have white women who marry in. Under the Indian Act, once they married an indigenous person, they gained Indian status. So when you have white women pretending to be indigenous, it's because the Indian Act created that. And yet they and yet because they're married to indigenous men, you know, they get all these privileges. And who gets neglected? Women who chose not to have children. This whole paradigm, like going back even in European culture, like this lady said, you ch make a choice not to have children and you're considered a witch. You know, my cousin says, you're like a nun. I said, don't tell me I'm a nun. I made this choice. Marina Crane (45:40.662) Not because of religion. You know, the nuns were forced to marry these horny men. You know, and so they became they w they they went to the priest and they said, Protect us and the priest says, Well you have to, you know, follow these orders that we'll protect you in in the Catholic Church and as a group of women. And it became they became nuns. But again too, even them, like what they did to indigenous children. Like I said to my cousin, don't even put me in that category. Again, why put me in a category? You know, like women's health and pelv pelvic health. When in the seventies my mother had a hysterectomy. you know, even like the things that are happening with with my sisters or with women that I know in terms of public p pelvic health. You know, my my cousin like just the things that she's had to go through with with her own health. P pelvic health. And and you know, I I talk about estrogen replacement and just like like there there is so much that that we as women we need to talk to other women about because like even even bladder infections, UTIs and like when people use antibiotics and the effects that antibiotics have on the body after six months. Like all that in in terms of even brain health and as we age in terms of dementia or Alzheimer's. All these things that that have to do with with bladder infections, because the estrogen that are has did has been depleted because of menopause, there there are there are there's medication and different techniques that women can can use like estrogen cream so that UTIs get less I I did not know that there were a lot of senior women who die from from sepsis because they had bladder infections or constant UTIs. And and that's preventable. That is preventable. A and yet we don't talk about it. And and even for me to talk to my cousin about f women's health and and to be shunned by her when I talk about this as if it's some Marina Crane (48:07.531) taboo or some witch's spell when when really I'm talking about healthy human sexuality and and what it is for the female body to to have estrogen or even in some you know and even some balance of testosterone. Though these things are important and valid for women, for women's health. And the fact too that, you know, you you spend your whole life and this is what you know, like I I've grown up with with with the women who chose to have children. We're all the same height. And because some of them have had eight children, they've they've shrunk at least an inch or two for me because because of all the calcium that their bodies had to give up to their to make their children. during the times they were pregnant. All that that women have gone through to give birth, to have a choice, to have children. And yet what is society doing? Having them work in well past their their their their time to to to s retire. That that's that that's my critique on on the whole thing. But yet even for me to try and champion that and to be shunned and hated for talking about it, because like they it's just like no there there there are a lot of women who are suffering. and it's not just the women who who are chose not to to marry their partners. And again, we're talking about a caste system within under the guise of the Indian Act, the laws within the laws, like a fourth world law. And and how indigenous women live with that. And whereas white women can never comprehend that. They can comprehend, okay, we're struggling with this and this and this. Yes, you are. But there there's a double there's a double Marina Crane (50:13.643) take on it when when you're looking in terms of mental health, you're looking in terms of erotia and limerence. And and you know, you know, I just feel like swearing right now because there's a hell of a lot of mental health workers who just don't give a fuck. They just don't see the balance in it because they just think, I can deal with this. I understand this. Because I have an Indian friend. Or I I've done this work. I'm going, no, you don't. You don't understand it because you're not coming from a cross cultural orientation. Actu the actuality being actualized. Like I said, there there are are are black and indigenous academics in psychology who even tried to publish papers. And and the Psychology Association of Canada refused to s refuse to publish them. But yet you get you get any older white woman who wants to become a therapist, open doors. A little check mark. Go ahead. You've earned it. I'm going, what is the wrong with society? What is wrong with society? Anyway, that's my two bits, my rant for the day. But for those who who listen and and have been listening to my podcasts and And I believe me, I think this past week I kind of scared you all because, you know, just the talk about self-harm. It's not me doing the self-harm, it's it's the the actual hatred towards me in projecting that onto me. And and the reality of it is like like at least it's open. The majority of times when I talk about lateral violence. and the gossiping about it, th those are hidden. You don't see people actually doing that horrible work against you because it's it's all gossip. You don't hear about it. So so this week it was open, you know, it was just like said t in front of said to my face. So but the reality of it is like at at what point at what point do people just you know stop you know stop interfering. Marina Crane (52:40.011) Yeah, I'm I'm grateful like when people just call me just to see how I'm doing. Marina Crane (52:47.204) yeah, thank you. Have a good day. That's all. Just a simple hello. I I don't need I don't need somebody probing and trying to figure out if I know what one plus one is. You know, I just it's pathetic. And and yet Marina Crane (53:16.565) I think I'm I think I'm reflecting on the per repercussions of what I said to the mayor and city council in Calgary last last Monday. 'cause see it's recorded. It's it's all recorded. And and I I know I sparked some sort of trigger. Because I know all the people who were working on projects with the indigenous community that were work that work for the city, in the in the audience like I could see I could see hear the I could see movement, okay? And I know the aldermen were questioning, like, okay, this is the program and you know, all of a sudden people were sort of becoming alive and alert and so now even this week I'm one of the ladies who works said I I I I was told to watch your the video Marina and I'm going, you were watching me? I again. You know, if people were concerned and seek me out then yes they can seek me out. But but I want to let you know, you my audience, my podcast audience, wherever you are in the world, you mean the world to me because if it weren't for my doing this every day or trying to put something down every day, I wouldn't have the practice to get up in public and talk freely. Because it it gives me that opportunity to to gather my thoughts and and really fine tune them. So that that I do get the point across of what's happening in in the world that I live in that that makes sense because it's not just me. I know even what I think and how I understand things. It's just the tip of what's going on out there in the big world. I like like I'm just one of the I Marina Crane (55:18.505) Again, I laugh when I know the reality of how like it's like it's like quicksand, you know, s th you know, you step on it and you sink. Well i in some ways it it seems that way, but it isn't really. I I mean sometimes I do feel like that, but but I think the podcast helps me helps me surface, come to the surface. and and realize that there there is a point to to giving information out about the Indian Act, about systemic racism, about human trafficking, about the caste system and and people's attitude towards people who choose to live a different life than them. And you know, my my cousin and a lot of other older women who haven't looked after their mental health and who get completely stressed out and project all their anger and hate to to people like myself. That's why I'm saying, you know, when you have a a white woman who wants to become a therapist, she has the she has the umbrella of just not answering her phone or or not seeing the client. But for me I I I'm constantly like it's it's open. I have no protection from that. I I in I'm engaged in it all the time. But I do I do totally depend and di not depend I do reach out and I do have discussions with people. I'm very fortunate, and and in some ways when when l lady talked about certain gifts that women have I I do know I've possessed that most of my life because I'm not like I'm not a genius. I far from it. However, I do know the gifts that I I have and I possess have been validated throughout my life by by many people I've grown up with. And it's it's the same thing too. It's it's reciprocal when I see people Marina Crane (57:33.656) who who do things that I'm just amazed like that of the way they think and how they do things. I I'm I'm just grateful, you know, to to meet such people. And and it it fills me with joy that that I meet such people. In the face of all the ad the adversity and all the things that I hear from elder indigenous women. the the the oasis or the break that I have i is knowing that I'm talking with people who have a different skill set, who who've accomplished certain things in their lives that that are making a big difference in this world. And and I'm just totally grateful that I that I know people like that. So and I hope you as in my audience in my in my podcast here, my audience listening, for whatever reason you listen to me, I appreciate it. And and hopefully you you learn a bit about what it is to to be indigenous in Canada. You gotta understand this. In Western Canada, we haven't really lived as much around systemic racism. as as Eastern Canada or various parts of the United States. W we like I'm seventy-four. At seventy-four years ago they started building a fence around my community. You can go in the back of where I live and you can see all the leased lands where the the government had sectioned off sections, cut lines, the size of city blocks. You know, like You know, people are scared, like they say, geez, you know, the Sutina, the sea's gonna take over. Believe me, this was ex existed before I was even born. Marina Crane (59:37.388) So whatever I can do, whatever I can do to help people understand and learn the history of Soutina, I put two videos up that were I was interviewed by, and I have some more interviews that are gonna come from young people from Soutina who want to interview me, and I'll post those on my podcast. And I I open it up too to people who are listening. I've I've had some people from the United States email me but but really, you know, I I like it's it's one thing that you email me, it's another thing if I actually get a phone call from you and have some discussion. And if I have a discussion with you on the phone I can get a good handle on where you're coming from. But until then I'm I'm just screening screening my emails. Okay. I shall I shall let you go and to Darcy and Marie and Wednesday and whoever else is out there. May the force be with you.