They know not what they do! Stop dehumazing us; we bleed, we cry, we live & we love like you.

 As I hold space for myself, I realize how much our indigenous youth need our help. We are all related & we feel the sorrow felt by many. 

Within my own network my sibling’s two in-laws died from drug overdose in the month of July. My firend’s two in-laws also siblings died from drug  overdose in July. In one community three young women did from drug overdose on the same day. Every community is burying 2-3 young people a weeks. Some communities are running out of funds to bury their young people. Is it any wonder why we as indigenous seek help for our youth. As decades ago many found balance & purpose by the going to sweats, attending Sundance & ceremonies. When Nathan Chasing Horse cane into my community all people who were in recovery attended. It was the younger people he targetted & vulnerable people.

Tonight I was accosted by a very drunk woman. I stopped her from hugging me & her partner told me I had no right to push her away. Both were intoxicated & those who witnessed this sided with the two drunk people. When I tell people white city people are different than white country people. Throughout my life scenarios of people siding with the white person I am confronting happens. I've learned to stand my ground. This is an example of fighting & healing from white supremacy. It's also an example of necro politics when society determines who lives & who dues. For me, practicing spiritual activism is standing my ground. 

Intergenerational trauma is killing us. We get triggered from being isolated, from constant grieving & experiencing chronic stress. We've become so emeshed in this co-dependent environment that we crave it to the point of recreating it. There's nothing abnormal in recreating it as long as it's done in a safe & supportive environment. 

My parents, my aunts & uncles & grandparents used humour. It helps us disrupt this chao. 

The young indigenous man who helped me walk out to my vehicle. He talked about the epidemic of drug overdosed deaths. He said it's mostly young people. I told him about the incident I has with this drunk couple & how an audience of wfitecwimen sided with the drunk woman. They were not concern for my safety. I was having a difficult time breathing & didn't want her cigarette smoke in my face. I told this young man this group decides who live and who dues & cause all they saw was my indigebousness. He said they don't tolerate this behavior & it wasn't addressed by his security partner. 

I said to him city white people are different than country white people. I said growing up around city white people made me resilient to their prejudices. He commented that this group probably didn't expect me to stand my ground with them. I said yes as they are city & think I am complacent to which I am not. Growing up around white children, children like myself, I physically fought them when they swear at me & taunt me for being indigenous.

As we talked walking to my vehicle I told him Europeans do not comprehend colonialism as they think the best thing they’ve done as a society is stop slavery. He agreed. I said as they ended slavery they started breeding farms. All historical records of amount of Black people killed was earned in time. I told him that we today can see the result of these breeding farms in the black American make today. These beeeding farms created more slaves. When a black American male passes on his Y-chromosome to his make offspring 35%~45% isn't African anymore rather it's European. Only 1% is indigenous to the Aneeucas. I told him this was a result of breeding slave on these plantation fatms. The horrors of what white supremacy did to their slaves is revealed in their DNA. 

Even the lack of socialized health care in the USA was created so black American would die like what European colinualized did to the indigenous peoples of the Aneeucas. In Canada the French we're the only conquoring race that converted to an indigenous way of life by oartnering up with indigenous people for survival. Indigenous oeoole’s concept if money was kinship. A person was considered wealthy by the connection they made with other indigenous people from other territories. This practiced could be seen in western Canada as the province of Alberta settled in the north. Metis people, or can I say indigenous people today, as result of sharing or gaining kinship as a sign of wealth. Eastern indigenous people are oriented towards money as a sign of wealth. Understanding the genocide of losing family to diseases as well as being hunted or starved to death was my ancestors reality. Remember that saying “know those who came before you.” Once you understand then define the word ‘civilized.’ 

I don't know if you've read other parts of my blog where I've states his the Romans colonialized England & from there those early British people who believed  & constructed Stonehenge became colonizers themselves. I've said this is what's happening to me it is as indigenous person. It's why I believe Nathan Chasing Horse practiced colonization on our youth & why he got away with his twisted spiritual practices he claimed was indigenous. In fact all people need to practice spiritual activism. Doing this we protect ourselves from plastic people. A saying that started in the 70s during the hippie revolution in givingvieace a chance. 

The world is much smaller now cause of social media

 

My biggest concern is these 231 Calls for Justice that the government of Canada HAS SAID is a need put in place for the safety our most vulnerable, indigenous children and indigenous women. There is a genocide happening in Canada and Canada is doing nothing about it. We are all standing by and watching all this death, as in the book “Necro-Politics by Achille Mbembe” summarizing here, society determines who lives and who dies. It’s way too late as Canadian society treats their pets better than they treat our most vulnerable people, our indigenous children, and our indigenous women. (@Resilient Inuk TIKTOK)

When I say “Wopida Mitakuye Oyasin” it means “We are all Related.” Our indigenous territories go well beyond the borders of our Indigenous Communities. We share information and feel at home in these territories as we have families in all the respective communities. We know how much information is being shared. When the Canadian government says that 70% of these Calls for Justice are met, we wonder things as to where are they getting this exact information. This past month the amount of indigenous people I know indirectly who have died from drug overdose is in an epidemic form. On First Nations communities this summer funeral costs skyrocketed. Living in fear as to who will be next to die from a drug overdose, will be seen as unbelievable from non-indigenous people. Imagine burying up to two to four youth on a weekly basis. Throughout Canada various Indigenous communities call States of Emergencies when a major crime occurs.

I'm becoming public and directing my focus from indigenous girls and indigenous women towards focusing on non-indigenous peoples of Canada and the world as my audience. Spending decades being anonymous for fear of my own safety was a direct result of how I was treated. (maybe fearing being labelled an angry indigenous woman or cougar) I'm saying as an indigenous knowledge keeper I'm not seeking attention as I started this Blog anonymously for indigenous girls and indigenous women. As much as this blog’s post appeared in 2011, I started blogging prior and I started advocating prior, from my own lived experience. The laws around sexual assault changed throughout these decades. When I was a young adult of nineteen, I was sexually assaulted. I know how difficult it is for any sexual assault victim to come forward. I know how difficult it is for non-indigenous police officers to believe any indigenous woman’s claim. It took me twenty-six years for my sexual assault case to be brought to court. Within a six-year period I managed to work with three RCMP officers with each transferring out of my investigations. I was so frustrated that I contacted the RCMP commissioner’s office. Until I acted beyond working with RCMP officers, networking with non-indigenous women who sought me out, my case didn’t move forward. It was contacting the RCMP commissioners’ office threatening to make my case public before anything was done. As this was an historical case, much like was happening with the Chasing Horse case, evidence was gathered meticulously.

I didn't start this out to seeking attention. All these years writing, warning people about this predator called Nathan Chasing Horse. We as indigenous women, we know the dangerous within our own communities. It’s naive to think we don’t. Our youth are reading books like “Stamped from the Beginning: A Definitive History of Racist ideas in America by Ibram X. Kendi.” Fighting and healing from white supremacy isn’t racist rather it’s a call for people to understand the policies governments put in place long before we were born. “Every Child Matters” or “Land Back” are calls to help people understand we can not stop fighting and healing as there are children depending on us.

Our indigenous families for generations felt these deep racial impacts directed towards us. Daily we continue networking within our territories knowing our extended families grieve over a family member who either goes missing or is murdered. I buried many cousins since the eighties. Today, in Winnipeg, my Dakota family waits to see if the landfill will be searched. We lost our nephew. He went missing. Canadian society doesn’t or can not comprehend this network of indigenous culture. Mostly what is known is what people wish to see. Before I was born, I’ve had non-indigenous children tell me since childhood how horrible we are as indigenous people. Understand this myth that the most dangerous indigenous minds are those that are educated. We are not dangerous. The cultural understanding between two different ways of thinking is real. Finding or making space for dialogues between two groups wasn’t available for my parents or my grandparents. I sought out an education because I heard the stories from my parents. Yes, I am a storyteller. Stories of the ancient temples, ancient cities, and ways of thinking long forgotten. If we as a human race ever hope to create a safe place for our children, we must all practice spiritual activism.

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From 2006-2022 if you or someone you know reported a SA to your local police authorities & nothing was done let me know. My step-niece reported this monster in 2009 for SA in 2006-2008. All SA reports are held. Why can they not find her report? Why for decades did the police call him a Person of Interest? Not once did I hear from any of his victims that he was ever brought in for questioning. 

 

As an artist my subject was the flow of energy within dance and I travelled. Meeting dancers who danced since childhood. Each had a family connected to this way of life. We are accountable to this community.

When a person sacrifices themselves during a Sundance they carry pledge throughout the entire year. They have a community they answer to as it’s an acknowledgment we are participating in this life not as an individual rather as a family or living organism with its own life force.

These communities connect everyone through each of us making relatives and following what is called a Red Road moving forward. A philosophy of lifting each other up so they not give up on this life. 

The Sioux people called dream dancers by the Cree. 

I want to emphasize that Nathan Chasing Horse was a traditional male dancer but had no community to call his home. There are many indigenous people who legally are card carrying community members who answer to nobody. They pretend they do much like so many reconnecting. These are the people Nathan recruited into his cult.

These dances existed before I was born & so many of our cultural practices to help us fight & heal from intergenerational trauma. Once a person knows those who came before us we can move forward. Our indigenous communities for decades had people like Nathan; however, before our children were stolen our communities took care of such monsters.