Self Proclaimed Medicine Man, Nathan Chasing Horse used deceptions: Sometimes I wonder is it worth knowing what makes people tick.

This was my experience in confronting Nathan Chasing Horse in 2007. He had no compassion for his victims. His propensity for girls started being more openly displayed by the summer of 2007. Documentaries, Articles, Indigenous Podcasts, My Podcast is under construction. Archival documenting yearly posts posted with transcripts will be published here. I’ll also link my YouTube videos associated with each podcast published. I also created a link to my GOFUNDME account. I may link my TikTok account

Sunday 8 October 2023

Sometimes I wonder is it worth knowing what makes people tick.

this is just a quick note for the night. as the Thanksgiving long weekend, comes to an end, makes me wonder. The question about how people choose to live their lives and what makes a person truly happy. Yes, growing up in poverty I am at the same time. trying my best to get an education by working full-time and going to school full-time, I just thought it would all be worth it. Now, don’t get me wrong. It is all worth it. It’s just so sad to see so many people having really poor coping skills. To the point of becoming addicted to prescription drugs, and or raising their children, become codependent on prescription drugs.

I don’t know if there’s any real balance between those people who live beyond their means or those people who don’t have the means to survive. I was in both scenarios, both have poor coping skills. Yet, the balance falls in between these two scenarios.

yet, the balance falls in between these two scenarios. I just hope everybody had a good Thanksgiving meal, and that people spent this time with their families.

When my niece was in high school, she would come back after school talking about what she heard on the bus. The conversations about prescription, drugs, and straight drugs was a bit overwhelming for her.

today, a young man, and when I say young man, he’s a Grandpa. When I knew him as a child, he was running with gang members in the city of Vancouver. All of his aunties and uncles have since passed away from drug abuse. His own children are also involved in this drug culture. The reason I mentioning him is that I don’t know when he is ever sober. This dynamics that he carries for me is unimaginable trauma. As today he disclose that he’s been sexually assaulted twice.

His own children are also involved in this drug culture. The reason I mentioning him is that I don’t know when he is ever sober. This dynamics that he carries for me is unimaginable trauma. As today he disclose that he’s been sexually assaulted twice. He disclosed this in front of his mother a family friend and myself. He became so agitated. Upon telling the story, just a few minutes ago, my cousin, who was listening to what I was saying to her, asked me if I was scared.

he became so agitated. Upon telling the story, just a few minutes ago, my cousin, who was listening to what I was saying to her, asked me if I was scared. It was just the dynamics of it all. It was the dynamics of it all, debriefing, understanding what just happened today.

I believe sometimes we don’t truly understand the people that we’re in contact with. We seem to numb ourselves when you see a psychotic break or some sort of psychotic behavior. I just cannot comprehend what is happening to all those small children around this man. I know he’s a very dangerous man. It really makes me think whether or not I want to continue visiting his mother.

it doesn’t seem fair that so many indigenous women that I do know and have contact with on a somewhat daily basis are addicted to some form of prescription drug. My cousin and I we were discussing prescription drug abuse, and she said that even 10 years ago, those who were addicted thwere discussing prescription drug abuse, and she said that even 10 years ago, those who were addicted then. are now suffering from major medical problems.

even with the cost of living here in Calgary, and the rent increase by $600 per month for me is unimaginable. Maybe it just seems that the whole world is coming into crisis. Or that there’s a real crisis, happening, and people are so numb that they don’t really understand.

as I’ve been growing up, I would hear the elders say to us, be good to each other. Now that I’m an elder, I rethink the statement. I rethink it, and I realize that it’s not only treating each other with kindness and compassion. It’s also having the ability to say to someone that I love you. it isn’t just enough to treat each other with kindness and compassion. It’s either in the words saying that to someone, to anybody that you love them, without any complications, or any kind of ulterior motive, other than saying, I love you.

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Memories of my late mother saying her dad, my grandfather taught her in a warning that the Dakota Medicine was good, but not anymore. As far back as 81 years ago, fake medicine people deceived their own people for money, power, and glory. Our grandmothers showed us through their prayers helping us celebrate love and helping us celebrate life within our families. Through my own lived experiences, I had to eliminate my own self-defeating behavior. Our people are depending on us to bring justice into our Indigenous Communities. Our Indigenous girls and women are going missing at an alarming rate and are being human trafficked. With little help in finding them or bringing their killers or abusers to justice, I started this blog. I never thought I would live to see such as year as 2023. Today, I feel blessed to be able to hold those who reached out to me in high regard. I am truly grateful, Creator’s Will guided me in my lifetime to see Nathan Chasing Horse arrested. And, yet at the same time, I grief for all his victims who died before they could see him brought to justice.

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Intergenerational truama further perpetuated.

It was a HBO movie set I first met Nathan Chasing Horse. I worked along side my late mother who was literate in Dakota. We didn’t spend too much time with him as he knew how to somewhat speak Lakota. Mostly we were around Actors like Adam Beach and Eric Schweig teaching them the proper pronunciations. My first impression of him was not that of an actor rather that of an indigenous young man with many ex-girlfriends. I ignored his arrogance as I managed my way through being a consultant on behalf of my later mother for the Director and the executive producers of Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee. Micheal Spears was stopped at the Canadian border so his role needed to be filled and since Nathan Chasing Horse was available he auditioned for the part with my mother speaking Dakota to him. The original intention of the movie was to have most of the dialogue in Lakota; however, as production started only few dialogues were kept. The Sioux culture needed representation. I advised them that the songs sung in Lakota would add a difference to the lack of dialogue and they agreed. I suggested they use Nathan’s singing ability and his ability to pronounce Lakota correctly as an asset. Prior to this Nathan was only hired as a stand-in as a Sioux Jailer for Sioux prisoners, nothing more and nothing less. It was in the fall of 2006. Nathan made connections with my younger brother and my oldest niece whom I took on the movie set. My brother started promoting Nathan in the schools and asked if I could help connect him with others within my community. From the ending of the movie in November of 2006 until March 2007, Nathan, and his entourage of three men left. During this time, I reached out to my friends who were having problems with the daughters. We met and hatched a plan to raise money for the mother’s and their daughters to attend Yuwipi, sweats and Sundance. It was the trip to the Sundance in Wolf Point that would cost the most. We tried to fund raise that turned out to be a disaster; however, once members of my community met and supported Nathan the money for the Yuwipi and Sweats were found, but not the Sundance; however, my younger brother was helped with Nathan and his entourage for his Sundance in the summer of 2007. Our ancestors carried within them intergenerational trauma that was further perpetuated in the creations of Indian Residential Schools. It’s a dark place of racism and genocide. Much of what I’ve written about pertains to sexual deviancy. I basically thought the 12-step programs of AA, Al-Anon, Sex Addiction and other 12-step programs helped. As we’ve all grown up around family violence; I’ve met many men who were exposed to such extreme violence. Much I write about here is focusing on is Limerence, because of intergenerational trauma. As the Yuwipi focuses on Limerence practices and I believe was once good. I’ve found as more and more non-indigenous people and indigenous people seek out by cultural appropriation through exploitation. Culturally appropriating our sweats and ceremonies doesn't mean you are healed or that you are automatically adopted into an Indigenous way of knowing. Being around indigenous communities isn't a place to hide your disorders rather it needs to be a place of communities like AA, Al-non and other 12-step programs. There’s no magic wand nor some psychic Psyche who can conjure up a quick fix. It takes time and a lot of hard emotional work. It's just sad that our own people are predators to our own girls and women. I was born into such a way of thinking, and I don’t blame anyone. I’ve learned we as human beings have more in common than our differences. This need for validation and acceptance is as old as time itself, so be kind to yourself and love the person you discover within yourself.

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