Self Proclaimed Medicine Man, Nathan Chasing Horse used deceptions: Traditional respect - I don’t expect non-indigenous people to practice this way of thinking or being

This was my experience in confronting Nathan Chasing Horse in 2007. He had no compassion for his victims. His propensity for girls started being more openly displayed by the summer of 2007. Documentaries, Articles, Indigenous Podcasts, My Podcast is under construction. Archival documenting yearly posts posted with transcripts will be published here. I’ll also link my YouTube videos associated with each podcast published. I also created a link to my GOFUNDME account. I may link my TikTok account

Wednesday 19 July 2023

Traditional respect - I don’t expect non-indigenous people to practice this way of thinking or being

Because of limerence behaviour occurring decade after decade from intergenerational trauma married men are not spoken to directly.

For example, when I was a child I could talk directly to my older brother who I was close to; however, once he married i’d get messages to him through his wife.

Another example, out of respect for my married female friends if I were to ask a question to her husband I would ask her to ask him.

Limerence is a deeper feeling than infatuation. When a married man show interest it doesn't mean he's in love with you; however, a person in limerence with that particular husband is stopped. Traditionally she would talk to his wife first to avoids any obsession created by two people interacting.

Limerence occurs in all societies. This is how we as traditional women honor and respect our friends & our brothers, uncles & male friends. It’s important to have balanced male energy in all relationships.

It also works in reverse to for men who wish to talk to a man’s wife. As for me, being an elder, tobacco is offered. It’s offered so whomever the elder is; for example a man talking to me; he would learn something about himself through interacting with me. It’s reverse too for a young woman talking to an elder man.

Whatever energy or influence I give off in any discourse I conduct myself is a teaching lesson. It’s understandable that we are human beings our of respect one gives an elder tobacco & a gift as there’s an exchange. This exchange does happen when the younger person learns something about themselves through interacting with me

If I give off to much emotional energy I apologize as it’s my way of coping with my own limerence. Intergenerational trauma.does go away. Hopefully by the time a human being becomes an elder they know their emotional triggers & know how to navigate through relapse and remain in recovery from this limerence phase over a person or an object.

I can only speak for myself in saying as I smudge myself & others it’s to protect them for me & in turn I am protecting them from my stories. You see when they hear what I am saying they perceive me as a strong, indigenous woman; whereas, I’m at my most vulnerable, as I am not present talking about traumatic stories. If I am seen as vulnerable then I am present & in the moment that opens me up to love another human being, such is healthy balanced life.

Postscript

It’s like an unwritten way of knowing. My friends & in-laws know it & so do other tribes and reactive this way of life

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Memories of my late mother saying her dad, my grandfather taught her in a warning that the Dakota Medicine was good, but not anymore. As far back as 81 years ago, fake medicine people deceived their own people for money, power, and glory. Our grandmothers showed us through their prayers helping us celebrate love and helping us celebrate life within our families. Through my own lived experiences, I had to eliminate my own self-defeating behavior. Our people are depending on us to bring justice into our Indigenous Communities. Our Indigenous girls and women are going missing at an alarming rate and are being human trafficked. With little help in finding them or bringing their killers or abusers to justice, I started this blog. I never thought I would live to see such as year as 2023. Today, I feel blessed to be able to hold those who reached out to me in high regard. I am truly grateful, Creator’s Will guided me in my lifetime to see Nathan Chasing Horse arrested. And, yet at the same time, I grief for all his victims who died before they could see him brought to justice.

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Intergenerational truama further perpetuated.

It was a HBO movie set I first met Nathan Chasing Horse. I worked along side my late mother who was literate in Dakota. We didn’t spend too much time with him as he knew how to somewhat speak Lakota. Mostly we were around Actors like Adam Beach and Eric Schweig teaching them the proper pronunciations. My first impression of him was not that of an actor rather that of an indigenous young man with many ex-girlfriends. I ignored his arrogance as I managed my way through being a consultant on behalf of my later mother for the Director and the executive producers of Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee. Micheal Spears was stopped at the Canadian border so his role needed to be filled and since Nathan Chasing Horse was available he auditioned for the part with my mother speaking Dakota to him. The original intention of the movie was to have most of the dialogue in Lakota; however, as production started only few dialogues were kept. The Sioux culture needed representation. I advised them that the songs sung in Lakota would add a difference to the lack of dialogue and they agreed. I suggested they use Nathan’s singing ability and his ability to pronounce Lakota correctly as an asset. Prior to this Nathan was only hired as a stand-in as a Sioux Jailer for Sioux prisoners, nothing more and nothing less. It was in the fall of 2006. Nathan made connections with my younger brother and my oldest niece whom I took on the movie set. My brother started promoting Nathan in the schools and asked if I could help connect him with others within my community. From the ending of the movie in November of 2006 until March 2007, Nathan, and his entourage of three men left. During this time, I reached out to my friends who were having problems with the daughters. We met and hatched a plan to raise money for the mother’s and their daughters to attend Yuwipi, sweats and Sundance. It was the trip to the Sundance in Wolf Point that would cost the most. We tried to fund raise that turned out to be a disaster; however, once members of my community met and supported Nathan the money for the Yuwipi and Sweats were found, but not the Sundance; however, my younger brother was helped with Nathan and his entourage for his Sundance in the summer of 2007. Our ancestors carried within them intergenerational trauma that was further perpetuated in the creations of Indian Residential Schools. It’s a dark place of racism and genocide. Much of what I’ve written about pertains to sexual deviancy. I basically thought the 12-step programs of AA, Al-Anon, Sex Addiction and other 12-step programs helped. As we’ve all grown up around family violence; I’ve met many men who were exposed to such extreme violence. Much I write about here is focusing on is Limerence, because of intergenerational trauma. As the Yuwipi focuses on Limerence practices and I believe was once good. I’ve found as more and more non-indigenous people and indigenous people seek out by cultural appropriation through exploitation. Culturally appropriating our sweats and ceremonies doesn't mean you are healed or that you are automatically adopted into an Indigenous way of knowing. Being around indigenous communities isn't a place to hide your disorders rather it needs to be a place of communities like AA, Al-non and other 12-step programs. There’s no magic wand nor some psychic Psyche who can conjure up a quick fix. It takes time and a lot of hard emotional work. It's just sad that our own people are predators to our own girls and women. I was born into such a way of thinking, and I don’t blame anyone. I’ve learned we as human beings have more in common than our differences. This need for validation and acceptance is as old as time itself, so be kind to yourself and love the person you discover within yourself.

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