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Thursday 8 December 2011

Whatever happened to fairy tales and make-believe?

From all reports of people siting this medicine man with his entourage, they claim he has complete control over his wives as well as his followers. Any attempts to talk to one of the girls is met with fear from the poor girl as she holds onto another of his wife's arm. They are unwilling to talk even when prompted. Bullying is bullying and for centuries in a aboriginal communities it's been our way of life.

Hello Wolf...(edited)

Thank you for your response, I hope my response to your letter helps you
further in healing. I am not uneducated nor am I unaware of how to 'live off the
reservation' as they say in Hollywood. You are just one of many in recent
years who are posting or using the internet to voice their concerns. I've had time to
think about how to answer you. I also wanted my response to come from a real
place. I talked with my brother almost every day while he's in prison. I
talked with my step-niece. Things haven't changed she is still trying to manipulate
something out of me and my family. She is a danger to herself and to others. This
is the damage that these two men did to her. I cannot do anything but blog.
I wash my hands of her. She is much need of treatment from sexual abuse. Not only is she in denial of what my brother did to her but also what this medicine man did. She defends them both and both are good men.  Claiming that both has sex with her when she was fifteen.

Healing from family violence may take a whole life time. Anyone who claims
that it takes less is fooling themselves. We Sioux are taught to
be pitiful in a way to help each other rise up from that state of pity. This is why
when NCH came and met me and my mom at work we felt like family because he played his pitiful self for us and eventually against us. It is a way of life that is taught from birth. It is a feeling of wakan. It is a brief feeling felt in ceremony. Yet, when we bury our dead or help
the living it's done in this spirit. NCH uses it against those who don't
know this feeling because it's a Sioux way of life. I know because I've met
Sioux who were raise with this wakan. Adopted Sioux children are always
amazed. I hope you realize that this way of life is still practiced in a
good way amongst many aboriginal peoples here and in the States.


And, people don't have to be Sioux or Aboriginal to practice being apart of the human family.

This was a response to a reader of my blog....
Thank you to all who read this blog and don't subscribe because it's okay to remain private. I appreciate all the people who are wondering what to do or think. I felt like I needed to find someone who could confirm what I was feeling too. I found her in the form of one of his ex-wives before he openly practiced polygamy.

As much as it would be so simple to believe my niece who claims I am in love with this Medicine Man, it's harder to undertand why she would continue to be jealous or why she would continue protecting a person as manipulating as him. Just as she continues to protect my brother who is in prison even after she put him there. As a child, I wondered why my mother would continue to stay with my dad year after year of being beaten. I believe a victim is a victim until they have the courage to leave and change their behavior. Maybe if I had married she wouldn't think so less of me.

When people think less of others they are bullying them. I didn't recognize then but I do now.




Tuesday 1 November 2011

FAITA 2008 - Nathan Chasing Horse - Best Supporting Actor

Posted then my reply.....
I agree with you all NCH is No Wicasa Itancan. I agree he is a womanizer he seriously Takes the cake wearing that Head dress in front of a Camera. and on stage. I agree he needs to earn those feathers. If he truly was a Heyoka he wouldn't be making movies and Parading around like he does he would be back here helping the Lakota people. But he don't he just runs around Chasing young girls i heard of his Rep on the Navajo rez. i been down there and they talk bad about him. He needs to Grow up.

  • he chases young girls really?!
    i saw a pic of his 3 wives so does that do anything with it?!
  • NCH is no itanca nore is he a pejuta wicasa he is nothing just like all of us. the only ones who were honored to wear those feathers are the ones we talk about today, its shameful that he would play a role in a movie os Sitting Bull's son One Bull when two years ago he disrespected Sitting Bull's sundance parading around as an heyoka he is not even such a helper as a heyoka or eny spiritual means
  • NCH is a rosebuder and I would like to throw my two cents as well. I feel that he disgraces himself for wearing a wapha not even spotted tail, sitting bull would wear such a headress. NCH you are still a kid you need to earn those feathers thru humilty not how many movies you acted in. Also rememeber that nobody made you chief among the Lakota. You are not a yuwipi man far from it...The rattles that shake in your ceremonies are not the spirits they are humans lying to people hau ho Crow D
  • Im from pine ridge and no man has ever wear a headress such as this NCH. I feel that its the people who will give him the honor of wearing a headress like this. Its shameful that he only wears this headdress in front of camera. He should come to pine ridge and try to wear that here. He should make up his mind what he wants to be chief, medicine man, actor, spiritual leader, womanizer, drunk ect.. I remember he used to drink with us in rapid city

  • Iive also posted......http://kinyewakanwinyan.blogspot.com/http://kinyewakanwinyan.blogspot.com/

    Monday 24 October 2011

    Ask yourself: "Why isn't he living on his traditional home land?" He claims he's a traditional man!

    !search for more clues into this man’s lifestyle. I’ve found the increasing awareness of people becoming awake to who this man truly is and what he’s doing to our own people.

    It’s taken going on six years now since he broke the law. He knew my brother was sexually abusing my step-niece. Rather than reporting my brother to the police he waited a year grooming my niece to believe he loved only her. I asked him whether what she claimed was true. He denied it. He denied the other three girls. One went away with him having a baby boy from him a year later and the other follows him probably thinking someday she’ll be with him. The other ran away from home but not after disclosing to the police.

    My brother is serving another two years in jail. Dancing Sperm, a name I now call this medicine man. I think he doesn’t ‘smile a-lot’ lately either. Dancing Sperm talked with my brother and it seems they were trying to figure out how to get my brother from having sex with his step-daughter. My brother was so enthralled with Dancing Sperm he couldn’t believe he was also having sex with the same child too. My step-niece was heartbroken when she realized what a fraud Dancing Sperm was. He broke all his promises to her and the thousands of dollars’ worth of gifts he gave her didn’t mean anything.

    My brother thought he was innocent because Dancing Sperm’s support over the year convinced him he was a good man. When the police arrested my brother, my brother confessed. My step-niece protecting Dancing Sperm lied about his sexual activity with her. Dancing Sperm convinced everyone that he was innocent and didn’t know anything about what my brother was doing to his step-daughter. Some women defend him saying if he knew who would believe him. My brother confessed. I know my brother did an evil deed but so did Dancing Sperm. It took my niece years again to talk to me. When she did she said that nobody here wants her around them.

    I told her twice she protected Dancing Sperm. She thought he was going to take her away as his wife. It is after this that it appears that Dancing Sperm started being more open about his addiction to fifteen year olds. My brother said he saw him with these girls throughout the year he was following him. I figured my brother like Dancing Sperm thought it was normal. My niece is getting professional help after all these years. I think once people realize that much of Dancing Sperms victims come from families where there is very little chance these girls will ever get professional help because they are so poor. Sometimes in their poverty they become so depressed they just want to forget what he’s done to them by drinking or taking drugs. I truly believe from experience this is why most people refuse to believe this man is so negative.

    Here is a video of him and please read the comments. There are some people who do know who he is. I hope you will be opened minded. Logically, if white society can have their sociopaths doesn’t it follow that we too as Native American or Aboriginal; whatever you deem correct, have these type of predators within our midst. http://www.youtube.com/user/Lin2010#p/u
    http://www.youtube.com/user/Lin2010#p/u

    Friday 21 October 2011

    What's it like?

    The following is my opinion of Shamanic Medicine as seen through my eyes as opposed to other European viewpoints. I agree that we are learning from and teaching each other constantly. When I think about OWN Oraph’s life classes saying ‘of being all that you can be,’ I wonder why most Canadians and Americans from European background practice Canadian Frist nations Medicine or Native American Spirituality.
    I believe, yes, there is the oneness in the world that we as human beings are trying desperately to achieve. As a result, many including myself are trying to become all that we can be or are meant to be.
    An elder in the community once said that “one who walks between worlds” is not afraid to die and until this week I thought it was an opinion of just one medicine man. Yet, many Sioux Medicine Men have and do continue to say this. As I’ve talked with another elder, I’ve think in my western ideology, and I do use this loosely because I was influenced by western culture too. I think and believe that such people walk the world as a monk does. This means they are spiritual leaders and healers. The twist is that there are many Sioux Medicine Men of do not live a monk’s life rather they practice polygamy or some bastardization of cultism. Much of the romance I believe comes from the disconnections we in our own ignorance fail to not realize that these people did not disappear as history says. Ritual abuse is alive and well in all societies both third world and the first.
    As everyone is connected then it stands to reason that everyone continues trying to connect, as each new life begins and each one ends. So, logically as each of us human beings become aware of our oneness. Many believe that children are holy because they come with this awareness already empowered in them at their birth. This is where there’s competition between healers.  There is a force that is also trying to compete. I believe it’s this competition that takes away from our true meaning or our finding our purpose in life.
    Most of the time, we try to communicate. This enigmatic, as an essence within ourselves as way of life, or a way to communicate with each other or other than through words or sounds. The question asked then is what is reality and how do we know that we are living in reality rather than in fantasy. Are we a reflection of information long ago forgotten? Are we truly living in the NOW and are we OWNing our true self’s? As our world becomes smaller and smaller due to technology, a technology that helps us uses our energy to engage our consciousness of oneness. The reality of it is that it is too overwhelming to comprehend and this is where the confusion comes in for those who are seeking their true self’s. Most healers will say that it’s like walking bumping into each other without knowing it or like finding your Wheat shaft being casted out by the wind when thrown up in the air. It is not magical nor is it supernatural. Many studying psychology to give it a name, giving it a tool to communicate its presence when it lives in all things, my ancestors called it Wanka or ‘Great Mystery.’
    An Elder woman’s opinion about Sioux Medicine Men, the Sioux communities are so fragmented and divided. In my opinion, this concept of the ‘Great Mystery’ attracts many followers who do not know what’s it’s like to live on a Reservation or Reserve. They look at the resiliency of the Native American or First Nations peoples and want to be like them. Those who crave this spirituality are the fragmented amongst modern society. They fall victim to these plastic medicine men that display psychic gifts and perform miracles. There is a test to see if you are a victim. Live a few years on a Reservation or Reserve among the people who lived there their entire lives. We are not the only people who are in denial.
    Every society has its fragmentations. Some call it trauma while others call them holes where our life’s energy escapes and still others try justifying this as spirituality. I believe it’s very simple. Religion and spirituality balance each other.  In art or in the practice of creating a piece of art, it’s explained that it’s a process. Much the same as looking at a piece of art work that looks like it was created by a Native American or Aboriginal person, yet it was created by a European. The question is much the same as the discussion then whether a piece of art is done by a true Native American or Aboriginal person. The thought is that it doesn’t matter because it an Art form. I believe this is the same argument that Europeans use when it comes to practicing Sioux spirituality. Rationalizing that their spirituality is like a band-aide that covers this trauma. It’s a gap they say or like a sore that forms a scab that covers the infected area.
    Everyone whose ever been traumatized can relate; however, there is so much pride attached to denial that those who follow a cult truly believe they are healing. I think because they feel like they are reclaiming a deep love or relationship with themselves. For me, it’s a vulnerable part that surfaces. When it does I know where it was created so I know to acknowledge it and move forward. I do understand why many are so involved with following that Red Road or Native American Spirituality. They rationalize and justify they are not bastardizing this way of life because they are following a Real Medicine Man or Holy Man. It’s these people that I blog for because the competition for followers like you is great because you have money. You have compassionate and empathy for an infected area, the reservation or reserve.  
    You have a need to feel like you are a medicine man or women in your own rights. You’ve studied, you’ve healed, you’ve spent the money and for some of you, you have believed you’ve lived it. Years ago I met a Native American Scholar who said he didn’t know what it was like to live on a Reservation or Reserve. He admitted he didn’t know this way of life. A way of life where Medicine Men and Medicine Women abuse their own people rationalizing that it’s a way of life. Taking advantage of the weak, sick and dysfunction of our communities are these sociopaths. We live in these communities so we know who comes and who goes. Our communities are small and with technology being what it is, our communities have become one. If there was a rescuer, savior or a latter day saint in our community anywhere in North American, we would know.
    There is a Great Mystery out there. Just as you have your own predators within your own societies or own cultures, we too have them. The sad reality is that the competition is so great for healers that the true healers are hidden or manipulators hide them. The irony is that I believe and think that the Great Mystery does bring those who need healing to them via the back door. I don’t believe even corrupt Holy Men or Medicine Men or Medicine Women have the power to deny our creator  these blessings.

    Sunday 28 August 2011

    First published in 28/08/2011 posted with updates from the original 10/08/2023

    I see people's children grow up and they too start dancing and following the pow-wow trail. When my nephews came home, they talked about this traditional healer and how they have seen him on their pow-wow journey. He leaves his wives outside the arena while he and his bodyguards go into the arena. My sister-in-law and my niece saw him at another pow-wow while they visited with one of his wives. They said he had nine wives beading while he danced. (2023 – These wives would take shifts 24/7 beading fully beaded outfits commissioned to traditional dancers. These wives were doing slave labor for him for decades) It sounds like a fairy tale and yes, these days one would think that women would know better. Yet, I tend to believe that if there are abusers there are women who love abuse (love in the sense they have convinced themselves he loves them) or live in fear of him should they speak the truth about their circumstances and suffer his physical assault. The cycle of abuse, I guess. Time does not wait for anyone, especially for those who continued control by Nathan. Conventional families are different from his cult as they grow, yet all humans need love. These wives are no different. Their addiction to him is greater than being addicted to hard drugs or alcohol. 

    I read that people who support this man called "Nathan Chasing Horse" (if you wish to call him a man!) says he is a good man. Well, he was a good man before I met him. He will always be a good man because people have a perception of what is bad and wrong. (All people who are traditional dancers or traditional healer are good) Even before I met him there were notes on the internet saying he was a good man, but he is not what he appears to be when it comes to helping women and children. He does not set an example when he left all his children behind over the years fended for themselves and others to have their mothers fend for them. I call his wives "drug monkeys" because he uses them the way drug lords use monkeys to deliver drugs, instead, they buy him things without nobody seeing him giving them the money. This he does so no law can say that he makes money. He hides it via his wives. Records show others purchase major items on his behalf so the sellers never to ask to testify against him in court. I

    t sounds easy because he has never sentenced for rape, yet teens here have so many problems their encounter with him is nothing, so they forget. Or their mothers become depressed and say who cares and he continues to get away with sexually abusing girls. If you have a solid relationship with your spouse and have a stable home, you have no worries because he will not bother you. Only those women and children whose families are or have a history of mental illness (FAS, depression or bipolar, he manipulated vulnerable people) does he use. I have read where these women swear, they will kill him if he ever shows his face here and yet others protect him by not informing the police. (2023 – even if when reporting him to their local police authority, those authorities did nothing. For example: forming a task force to arrest him)

     just think that Indigenous people do know their traditional healers like Nathan and if his followers did their research, they would know that he is not an accepted traditional healer. They just saw him as an actor not as a healer. Their lines blurred there. I write hoping there are people out there who are watching him. I am hoping there are girls out there who will stay the course and not back down when charging him with rape. (2023 – January, Nathan arrested) It is not that he is their boyfriend, and he is there to give them gifts. Once he gets what he wants he leaves and if you are one of his wives the only reason, he has not left you is because you listen to his demands. You have something he wants and that is his money from your communities or followers from your communities. 

    He has never really had a family. (I do not think he ever tried, as he continued to have a wondering eye. He would leave to be with other women.) He tried and after ten children with eight different women he decided he could never settle down, so he decided to have nine wives all at once. (He deliberately used his girlfriends, then his wives to hide his obsession with children) Yes, women love to share him.I did not use his name previously because I was threatening with a lawsuit, and I also figured who will believe me as the women within my home community did not listen to me nor did they hear my warnings about him while he was here. Yes, I had good reason to remain anonymous. Women can be very mean via lateral violence)









    (28/08/2011 published raw)
    I don't have children and I see people's children grow up and they too start dancing and following the pow wow trail. When my nephews came home they talked about this medicine man and how they have seen him on their pow wow journey. He leaves his many wives outside the arena while he and his body guards go into the arena. My sister-in-law and my neice saw him at another pow wow while visiting with one of his wives. They said he had nine wives beading while he danced. It sounds like a fairy tale and yes in these days one would think that women would know better. Yet, I tend to believe that as long as their are abusers there are women who love being abused. It's called the cycle of abuse, I guess.

    I was watching my neighours on FACEBOOK and saw their children's pictures realizing that time doesn't wait for no one. Conventional families are not the same yet all humans need to be loved. I read that people who support the this man called "NCH" says hes a good man. Well, he was a good man before I met him. He will always be a good man because people have a preception of what is bad all wrong. Even before I met him there were notes on the internet saying he was a good man, but he isn't what he appears to be when it comes to helping women and children. He doesn't set an example when he's left all his children behind over the years for some to fend for themselves and for other having their mother's fend for them.

    I call his wives "drug monkies" because he uses them the way drug lords use monkies to deliver drugs, instead they buy him things without nobody seeing him giving them the money. This he does so no law can say that he makes money. He hides it via his wives. Records show others purchase major items on his behalf so the sellers can never be asked to testify against him in court. It sounds easy becaues he's never been sentenced for rape yet many teen here have so many problems their encounter with him is nothing so they forget. Or, their mothers become depressed and say who cares and he continues to get away with sexually abusing girlds.

    If you have a solid relationship with your spouse and have a stable home you have no worries because he will not bother with you. Only those women and children whose families are or have a history of mental illness does he use.

    I've read where these women swear they will kill him if he ever shows his face here and yet others protect him by not informing the police.

    I just think that Native American people in the USA ahve it so bad that only medicine men like him are seen as healers and nice people. The lines of normal are blurred there. I write hoping there are people out there who are watching him. I am hoping there are girls out there who will stay the course and not back down when charging him with rape. It's not that he's their boyfriend and he's their to give them gifts. Once he gets what he wants he leaves and if your one of his wives the only reason he hasn't left you is because you listen to his demands. You have something lhe wants and that his money from your communities or followers from your communities. He's never really had a family. I believe he tried and after ten children with nine different women he decided he could never settle down, so he decided to have nine wives all at once. Yes, there are women who love to share him.

    I really don't use his name because I figure who will believe me.

    Wednesday 6 April 2011

    Bury my heart..myspace to here 06/04/2011

    As the years went by I realized meeting this medicine allowed me to realize we are all connected! Yes, I would look at other women and think their life doesn't affect me, and now I realize it does. This is why I write about this medicine man. There are fake out there mostly plastic whit medicine people who can not reference what I am saying or it's meaning. I believe it's the grandfathers will guide medicine people and not plastic...if they knew would they be so detached. Life for me trying understand what goes on in others doesn't mean I will not help.

    I write my blogs with concern for what it is that is actually happening within my family and my community. I've come to the conclusion is how we treat others reflects on us maybe not immediately but in time. As much as there are plastic medicine people out there they too are apart of everything and without their lack of understanding I believe true medicine can not thrive.

    For as much as people want to be seen as special there are serious problems faced by real medicine people. This why I wonder why would plastic medicine people want these gifts? I don't use my real name nor do intend to expose real people. I give names but not real names. There is real medicine people here.

    I hope to transfer my previous blog into this site for those whoever are interested and were interested in my posts..thank you,